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Quick Update

2011-12-06T13:41:00.001-06:00

Yes, I'm still here. Sorry I haven't been blogging lately. I won't give any excuses - but I know I need to get back on track. Stay tuned.

The Ups & Downs of Fitness

2011-11-23T09:54:00.001-06:00

So, I haven't been feeling it lately. I haven't really wanted to go to the gym; I haven't wanted to blog; I haven't wanted to track my calories. The ups of fitness? The scale. The downs? My attitude.

Let's first talk about my diet. I've been eating too much, too often. And, while I have been telling myself I don't really care, I truly do. I think there's two parts here. One is that I'm so darn hungry all the time. Two is that I'm not eating as healthy as I could be. That is probably what's causing me to be hungry! Because of my guilty eating, I don't want to log my food. I'm guesstimating that I'm WAY over calories...

My exercise routine. Monday & Tuesday of this week were the best that I've done. I feel like I've been slacking over the past two weeks. And the scale shows it. I hit 2.67 miles of the elliptical in 30 minutes yesterday. Which is the best I've done in probably three weeks (or more!). I was sweaty and tired, but I was glad I did it. Right now, fitness is kind of like mowing the lawn. I hate doing it, but once I start, it's not that bad.

I've been REALLY tired lately. Like, falling asleep at work tired. I'm going to guess it has to do with my diet, but I'm not sure. Me being tired = grouchy/moody. And apologies to my wife and kids, because I haven't kept that in check.

I need new shoes, also. My feet are going numb if I'm on the elliptical or treadmill for more than 10 minutes. After about 20 minutes, they start to hurt. I've been looking at several different brands. Any suggestions on a brand/model that would be the best for an overweight guy?

Any suggestions on rebooting my fitness/diet? Has this happened to you? What have you done in the past to get yourself back on track?

Weekends

2011-11-14T09:07:00.001-06:00

Before I get into telling you about my weekend, please allow me to let you know my latest loss. According to BodyBugg, I burned 5,800 calories on Friday. Yes, that's correct. I worked my tail off in the warehouse part of my office, then went and worked out! I weighed myself, and I'm now at 328.2 lbs! That's a total of 31.6 lbs lost from my highest weight in September! I've been working out since October 6, so since that date, I've lost approximately .88 lbs per day.

Weekends have been tough. From eating moderate portions and healthy foods, to staying active. Ken has me taking the weekends off to rest. And, I know that is important, but it seems like I'm not doing enough. I actually feel lazy on the weekends. Couple that with the fact that we're on the go most weekends, there wouldn't be much time anyway. Food choices can be difficult. This last Saturday, we spent the day at Julie's folk's house. There were far too many treats & goodies just sitting out, singing to me with their sweet, siren call. Sunday wasn't any better. Buffalo Wild Wings for lunch. WOW, that's a lotta calories! We had to stop at Sam's Club, and they have such good samples. I really need to learn moderation on the weekends.

I have a long workout scheduled today. Monday's are kind of rough, because you're coming off the weekend. Plus, I seem to always be very tired (more on Mondays!). I can't help but think that if I worked out in the AM, I would have more energy in the morning. Afternoons are much more convenient for me. What gets you motivated on a Monday?

Taking a break from health (blogging, that is)

2011-11-10T13:20:00.002-06:00

I feel like I'm having a pretty good week. My friend and I have been pushing ourselves at the gym, I've been eating better this week, and I'm not concerned with the scale right now. My jeans are (much) looser. I've noticed that I need to cinch my belt tighter, otherwise my jeans nearly fall off!!

So, I'm feeling good right now. I wanted to give an update on the other parts of my life. I had my annual review at my job. And, admittelty, it's kind of a boring job. But, I got a positive review, and a raise! Makes a guy feel good.

Zang indeed, Wayne. Party On!

I have twin ten year old daughters, Mackenzie and Avery. Mackenzie made supper last night, with the help of a sous chef (my wife). She made macaroni & cheese with bacon! Bacon is my favorite....um...everything. My favorite meat, my favorite vegetable, my favorite dessert...you get the idea. Mackenzie pulled out a can of green beans and a can of pineapple for side dishes, set the table and even cleaned up the kitchen! I was so proud of her! The meal was super.

While Kenzie was making supper, Avery and I went over her spelling words. She needed to assert herself a bit more in that subject, and has she ever improved! Every word I gave her on the list, she nailed it! But, what I found super; she wanted to study some of the words again, because she felt like she stumbled over them. She wanted to be absolutely sure she had them right. That made me proud!

My wife, Julie is an amazing woman. She's strong and compassionate. She finds the best in me, even when I don't. She's been very proud of my weight loss. And, I'll just say this. While it's wonderful to hear words of praise from you, my faithful readers, it's nothing to the words expressed by my loving wife. She's the girl that keeps me getting up every day and pushing myself.

I'm going to throw out a shameless plug here, also. Julie is a blogger as well. She is like Crafty McCrafterson. Her blog is called A Little Bit of Bling. She is quite crafty, so if you are, I would suggest you check out the neat stuff she does. She also makes something called crinkle ribbon. (If you're a crafter, you know what it is). You can check it out & buy some over at 3 Girl Jam. (JAM is Julie, Avery, Mackenzie. Clever, huh?) I hardly have a crafty idea in my head. Ask me to fix something, and I'll likely be able to figure it out. But Julie can turn a piece of paper into a work of art!

But back to me telling you about my wife. It's amazing to have someone behind you that is supporting you. Friends are great for that too. But, Julie loves me and cares for me unconditionally. She wants me to be happy, and she wants me to succeed. The really cool thing is that, while she loves me and wants me to succeed, she isn't afraid to tell me to push myself harder, or when there is a struggle - telling me to dig deeper and work through it. Often, she is my voice of reason. Especially when there is food involved!

So, yeah, she's pretty much superfantasticallyawesome. Or, to quote a pseudo-celebrity, she's amazeballs. Though, I think I like my phrase better. Oh, and just for the record, she's the best baker in the world.

Aimless Wednesday

2011-11-09T06:46:00.003-06:00

It snowed here overnight.

It's not that I mind having snow.

But it needs to wait.

My little haiku about snow. We had rain all afternoon & into the evening. Then, it switched overnight to that really heavy, wet snow. The roads weren't plowed when I drove to work, and it was just a sloppy mess.

My uncle Babe fell on Sunday and broke his femur. He's scheduled to have surgery today, so please keep him in your prayers. It sounds like they'll have to pin it.

I worked out yesterday. 30 minutes on the elliptical. Since I'm only working with Ken once per week now, I've started working out with a friend of mine. I'm not sure how much he wants to lose, but he's become inspired by my progress. I hope I can help him and push him to work hard! I'm feeling good about the fitness progress I've made. It's such a great feeling when I'm finished with the workout and I'm all sweaty & I feel like I've accomplished something positive!

I posted my 'gain' yesterday. I'm not happy about it, but it was the number on the official weigh-in day. I'm eating healthier this week. Julie made apple bars yesterday, so I did splurge and have a (rather large) apple bar with a small scoop of cinnamon ice cream. But, I don't feel guilty about it.

I'm trying to NOT have snacks or treats throughout the day, which has been a huge problem for me in the past. In fact, it's one of the primary reasons I've gained as much weight as I have. I would go to the convenience store that's next door to my work, and they would have 'specials'. "Buy 1 candy bar, get 1 free!" Well, I'd be stupid not to! The problem was that I would eat both that afternoon. Plus a couple of 20oz sodas. Plus a calorie laden lunch. Breakfasts were bad, too. 3 or 4 donuts was a norm for me. So, it's been a massive change in thinking. But it's been good. I'm focused on eating smaller portions and healthier foods.

Julie has started to look at new phones. Her Droid is really slow. We've taken it in, and the techs haven't found anything wrong. They'll do a cold-boot and ask her to try it. It's becoming a pain for her to use. So, she's been shopping around a bit. And I started looking, too. I have a dumbphone. It does text and calls. Oh, and it has a crappy camera on it too. The iPhone sure looks pretty. I don't know if I can justify having to pay that data fee for two phones, PLUS having two more lines (one for each of the girls). It would be really super to have that connectivity when I'm at work; but I just don't know...

Sorry for the rambling! Doing weights + cardio tonight, so that will be good. I've been really tired this week, and I think it's the time-change. Have a great day everyone!

Ups & Downs

2011-11-08T07:34:00.001-06:00

I've had a few days that could be described as different...

Let's start with Friday. I did the normal work thing, then went to go work out. Ken had me doing weights, and we started talking about free-weights. Since I had never used those, we gave it a shot. I can officially say that I can bench 100lbs. I did about 5 sets before becoming exhausted. Definitely a different feeling than the chest press machine!!

After my workout, I weighed. OUCH...the scale said 345.0 It showed three hundred and what now?? I stepped back on to verify. Yep...

Um...I know that I didn't eat very well last week, but I worked my ass off. I mean, Wednesday & Thursday I went to the gym twice! What...the??? I stopped at the clinic to use their scale. It showed 347.2!!! I was determined to not let this bother me. Why do you ask? Well my faithful readers, I'll explain.

I've just started this journey. And I've learned that I have been an inspiration to many people. There are friends and family on Facebook, friends on Twitter, my readers on this blog...they all support me and encourage me. But many gain inspiration to go out there and fight their own fight. One little setback is not going to cause me to fail. That would simply be a disservice to myself and my support group. Also, I know an eight pound gain is not possible. I chalked it up to water weight (I had salty foods for lunch) & possible muscle gain. But it's hard to ignore that number.

Saturday morning I made pancakes for my girls. They had a friend spend the night, and pancakes are kind of a tradition for sleepovers. So, I had pancakes for breakfast. Probably too many, but that's okay (for now). We did some shopping and had a good day. Sunday was church, then we ran some errands. I didn't overeat this weekend, but I could have eaten better.

I had my normal breakfast yesterday, plus a good lunch. I worked out hard yesterday but didn't reach my goal that I wanted to hit on the elliptical. My mind was elsewhere, really. Our church hosted a concert last night. Seventh Day Slumber was performing. I was asked by the pastor to help with security. Which meant that I got to stand in front of the stage. I was literally 5 feet away from the bands! It was really cool, but REALLY loud. My girls had a wonderful time. My wife was part of the kitchen staff and totally kicked butt feeding the bands and crew. Hopefully, the bands music touched some hearts and helped heal some hurt.

I did weigh myself yesterday after my workout. The scale in the locker room at the gym was one of the old style from a doctor's office. It read 333.5 lbs. THAT seems more like it. But that raises a question. What (if anything) do I post? Do I post the 345, then wait for my next 'official' weigh in??

My knee hurts this morning. Well, it started last night. Standing for as long as I did last night wasn't the greatest. I'm wearing a brace today. I'm thinking some exercise would be perfect for it!

TGIF

2011-11-04T06:48:00.001-05:00

Well, it's Friday. Today is the last official day for working with Ken. I'll get weighed this afternoon, but I'm not looking forward to this weigh-in. It has been a worthless week for eating. I've been working out a lot this week, but I haven't been eating as healthy as I should be. I've been very tired this week, too.
We joined the local gym on Wednesday. My girls wanted to work out on Wednesday and Thursday, so after my 'normal' routine, we went up there and did some work, too. I've basically done 2 hours of exercise the past two days, and my BodyBugg reflects that. 5,700 calories burned on Wednesday & about 5,300 yesterday.

The weather has taken a turn, too. That may be a factor in my sleepiness. It's been very cold the past two days. Just want to hibernate, I guess.

I've been posting my progress on Facebook since I rebooted my lifestyle. It's been interesting, because I get so many positive comments about how well I've been doing. I know that everyone is genuine and is proud of my accomplishments, but part of me keeps the praises at arm's length. "What if I fail again?" "How long can I keep this up?" Thoughts like this are constantly in my head.

I continue updating my blog because I love to write. I may not be the best wordsmith that has graced the 'blogosphere', but I do my best. I've also realized that I do inspire others in this journey. There are so many bloggers that talk about healthy living and becoming fit. It's great to have their perspective, especially those that are maintaining now, rather than losing. But what's really amazing is how many of us are on the same path together. I makes me feel like I'm not alone.

I hope that my progress has inspired you to work harder. Maybe even gotten you off the couch and doing some of the hard work. I'll cheer you on. It's hard work - but the benefits are AMAZING!

A couple other notes. I'm considering running the Warrior Dash in June with Ken and at least one other friend. I'm not a runner (yet!) - but by June, I should be taking names!! Anyone done the Warrior Dash? How was it?

Also, my RLS (restless leg syndrome) has been off the charts the past 3-4 days. I don't know why, but it's driving me crazy!! I would love suggestions on relieving the discomfort.

I'll be posting a new photo to show my progress. I think that I'm getting there...slowly but surely. Have a great weekend, all!

Short Post Today

2011-11-02T08:11:00.002-05:00

Weird week - the girls have early outs due to parent/teacher conferences this week. I've had 2 great days at the gym. Monday was a full day - lifting + cardio. I hit 125 lbs on the leg press, 100 lbs on the chest press. I did some squats and pushed a wavemaster across the floor for a few laps. Cardio was good too. 15 min on the arc trainer + 15 on the elliptical.

Tuesday was a hard day. 30 minutes on the elliptical. I hit the 3 mile mark RIGHT at 30 minutes. That was the final goal that Ken had assigned me. I believe I've nailed every goal that he's put out there for me. So, I've broken another PR!!

This is the last week of training with Ken. We're joining the local gym today to get started. I'm a little sad, but I'm so very grateful that he's been able to work with me. The REALLY awesome thing is that the gym that Ken works at is giving me 1 personal training session per week (for free!). Wow!! I just can't tell you how blessed I've been.

Ken has told me that since I've been posting on Facebook and here, that he has some new clients. Apparently, I've been an inspiration to others. THAT is really humbling. I often think I could be doing better, or that other people are doing so much better than I am. But, it's really amazing to hear of people that are proud of me and that believe in me. I never knew I had that kind of support!

My eating has been out of whack. I blame Halloween. I didn't need to eat all of that crap, but I did. It's been a rough couple of days. I'm trying to get back on track, and get a better grip on my eating. I don't want all of this work to go to waste.

I think we all stumble from time to time. Are you going to be someone who gets back up and continues on? Or are you just going to lie in the dirt and give up? I know what I'm going to do.

My Weight Loss Program (Part Three) - Nutrition

2011-11-01T05:02:00.000-05:00

Here is the third installment of my weight loss program. Today, I want to tell you about nutrition. I used to look at food as a crutch. It was something that made me feel good. I thought it would comfort me when I was depressed. We eat during celebrations, birthdays, holidays. We often center social gatherings around food.

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Readers should consult appropriate health professionals on any matter relating to their health and well being.
The information and opinions provided here are believed to be accurate and sound, based on the best judgment available to the authors, but readers who fail to consult appropriate health authorities assume the risk of any injuries. This website is not responsible for errors or omissions. Basically, the following works for me and I wanted to share it with you.

Reject the idea of a "diet". The only time I like using that word is in the context of "My diet consists of..." I don't diet. I have made some changes in my eating habits, and I've started eating healthier, but I'm not on a diet. The word diet almost sets you up for failure, because I think of it as being a temporary phase. Don't diet, just eat better.

I am now learning to view food as fuel. It is what my body needs to function. So it's important to give my body healthy fuel so it can function better. In an earlier post, I wrote "Calories In/Calories Out". I believe that to be true. If you eat more calories that your body needs, you are going to gain weight! It doesn't matter what kind of calories you eat. However, when I started limiting my caloric intake, I wanted to be certain that my daily limit was filled with things that would fill me up, and not leave me wanting. That meant no more 'empty' calories. What good are jelly beans? Sure, they taste great - but it's not as if I'm getting nutrition from them. Especially if I eat a pound of them during the day,

Fresh fruits & veggies, whole grains, quality protein & dairy are all great. Break that cycle of eating fast food and convenience foods. The ideas that I suggest here are my own, and they are things that work well for me & my lifestyle. In a busy family of 4, it can be difficult to eat healthy. But we do our best.

Take a multivitamin. Every doctor that I've talked to said that it's a good idea to take one. It can help get essential nutrients into your body that you might otherwise be missing. Yes, it's much better to eat balanced meals to get the nutrients & vitamins you need. Taking a multi is a way for me to make sure I'm getting the essential vitamins & nutrients that I need.

I eat a bowl of oatmeal in the morning, along with a Greek yogurt (My favorite is Chobani). Lots of complex carbs & protein at breakfast time to keep me hunger free for hours.

Lunchtime consists of raw veggies, cheese, maybe a yogurt, etc. The list goes on. Sometimes it's leftovers, which is great because it's free. I like fruit, so that's always been easy. Tuna & WASA crackers - YUM.

Break the habit of thinking that you need to eat certain foods at certain times of the day. Ham sammie at breakfast? Sure - whole grains, protein...works for me! Want to eat scrambled eggs at supper? Why not??

A note about corn. Living in Iowa, I have thing for corn. Sweet corn in the summer time; there's nothing better. But, we need to remember that corn isn't a vegetable. It's a grain! (You did know that, right?) I love potatoes, rice, pasta. All delicious things, in moderation.

Try new things! Ever wonder what a zucchini tastes like? How about something you've never tried before? Asian Pears, Kumquats, Tomatillos, Quinoa, the list goes on. Or preparing favorites differently. We roasted some garden fresh cherry tomatoes with some spices and olive oil. WOW! Totally brought out the sweetness of the tomatoes, and really made the flavors pop. You might find that trying a new food is easier (and tastier) than you think.

Snacks have always been important for me. The problem was that I would snack a lot. I would start eating junk food almost right after breakfast - right up until lunch. Of course, I had to have something sweet to finish my lunch. It couldn't be yogurt or fruit, that king size Kit Kat just looks too good. I limit my snacks now, both in terms of times and quantity. Plan for snacks.

Savor your food! If you want that piece of chocolate, have it. But don't gobble it up, savor it. Feel the textures in your mouth. Eating isn't all about taste. There's smell, texture, taste...so enjoy your food!

Don't eat in front of the TV, or the computer. You'll eat too fast and you'll likely go back for more. If you have a family, eat as a family. Don't camp out in front of the TV and watch that sitcom. Sit down at the supper table & talk about your day. Studies have shown that by doing this, we actually eat less. Probably has to do with talking and interacting with one another...slows us down. If you're single, sit down at the table and eat. It's probably better for you then hunched over watching TV.

I still drink my coffee. I've limited the amount of sugar to 2 packets per 16 oz cup (instead of 4-5). I also have limited my amount of coffee to 2 cups (sometimes 3), rather than 3 or 4. I will drink a diet soda on occasion - but I won't touch regular pop anymore. I love iced tea, and I like the Crystal Light packets. It's a nice change from just drinking water.

I've limited my alcohol intake. I'll have a beer (or 2) once a week. Sometimes it's less than that. I do my best to limit it for a variety of reasons.

Please let me know if you have questions or comments. I'll respond to them as quickly as I can. Again, the opinions on here are mine. Thanks for reading!

How Do You Eat An Elephant?

2011-10-28T08:20:00.003-05:00

I can't tell you how important it is to stay positive in this journey. Too many times I've become discouraged when I've woken up sore (all week), or didn't see the results I wanted on the scale. There are far more important things than a number. Each time I go to the gym, I know I'm getting healthier. It's a marathon, not a sprint. I didn't get here overnight - so I can't change myself overnight. Little steps make a huge difference.

During this month, I've realized how blessed I am. I've made a great friend who cares enough about me to want me to succeed. He's given me guidance and direction. He's encouraged me and pushed me. I'd like to give the back story here.

In March, when I was in the Whip It 180 challenge, a friend from church called me and asked if knew Ken. I said no. Ken had been going to the church I attend, but had moved. He is a personal trainer and got in contact with me via Facebook. He offered his help in getting me in shape. I didn't win the contest, and was discouraged. I quit. I just gave up. So, let's fast forward to October. Ken contacted me via Facebook again, then called me. He "asked" me to come into the gym he works at and we can start on a plan. (He didn't really ask. It was more like a gentle shove.) I didn't have to pay anything, either.

So I did. And he has been such a great help to me. I've learned so much in the last month, than I have on my own. He knows what my strengths are, knows how to motivate me, and knows how to get my fat butt in shape. We were talking yesterday, he mentioned that I'm a trainer's dream client. I show up on time, ready to work. I don't slack off when doing weights - I push myself. I don't quit. Ken said that! WOW. That was a huge boost for me.

So, now that this month is drawing to a close, I needed to make a decision. Do I continue working at this gym, and continue working with Ken? Or do I join the local community center? Training with Ken has been outstanding. He understands the financial strain that joining the gym would be. (It's expensive, especially for a family of four). The community center is much more manageable, and I can bring my kids to let them play in the gymnasium. A couple's membership there would be less than half of what a single membership would be at the big gym. Understandably so. Ken wants me to continue, and not to give up. He wants to see me healthy, and happy.

He and I have discussed some options on what we're going to do. We have a good plan in place, and I ~~think~~ know I'll be successful. I've made excellent progress in a month, and while I know I won't continue to lose weight at the same pace, I'll continue to lose weight!

So, how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.

P.S. I've lost another 5.2 pounds since last week. WOOT!

My Weight Loss Program (Part Two) - Exercise

2011-10-27T05:17:00.003-05:00

I wanted to give you a rundown of my exercise routine that I've learned over the past few weeks. It can be broken down into 3 parts, weight (resistance) training, core strengthening, and cardio. Resistance & core is done 3 times per week for 30 minutes, and cardio is 5 times per week for 30 minutes.

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Readers should consult appropriate health professionals on any matter relating to their health and well being.
The information and opinions provided here are believed to be accurate and sound, based on the best judgment available to the authors, but readers who fail to consult appropriate health authorities assume the risk of any injuries. This website is not responsible for errors or omissions. Basically, the following works for me and I wanted to share it with you.

Resistance Training - 10 sets of each (alternating)
Chest Press (87.5 pounds) - 10 reps
Hammer Rows (60 pounds) - 10 reps
Leg Press (75 pounds) - 10 reps

Resistance training is going to allow you to build muscle. "But, I just want to lose weight, Josh!" I know, and I said that too. But it's important to make sure you have some definition so you look good after you've lost the weight. Plus, more muscle means more calories burned. It is important to push yourself, but not overdo it. Squats (I hate 'em) are really good for your leg muscles. So is steps. Just taking a large step up, then back down is good. They have these big wooden boxes at the gym just for that.

Core Strengthening - 10-15 minutes (alternating)
Deadlifts (30 pounds *2-15 pound dumbells*) - 10 reps -- NOTE: Your form is crucial when doing these, as you don't want to hurt yourself!!
Torso Rotation (10 pound medicine ball) - 30 reps
Planks - Holding for a full minute, then 1 minute rest, then repeat - 5 reps
Additional Note: There are some EXCELLENT exercises displayed at the Mayo Clinic website.

Core strengthening is important for balance & stability. It strengthens your abdominal muscles and your back muscles. It helps all of the muscles in and around your "trunk" to work together. It can also help prevent back injury. Men often neglect core exercises, so if you're a dude reading this....DON'T SKIP! There are LOTS of exercises you can do without any equipment, especially for working your core. No excuses!
Cardio - 30 minutes daily - Moderate/Vigorous Intensity
Elliptical/Treadmill/Arc Trainer/Bicycle/Walking/Running

I prefer using the elliptical because it's lower impact. We'll switch it up and do the Triple-Ten, which is 10 minutes each of Elliptical/Treadmill/Arc Trainer. I'm just starting out (again), so the elliptical is on level 5, and I try to keep the speed between 4.5 - 5.0. The treadmill (IMHO) should have an incline. If you can't run, that's okay - a brisk walk is great. The Arc Trainer is sort of like the elliptical. I don't mind it, it is better than the treadmill. Have you considered running? A blogger friend, Brad Gansburg has set up a 5K in 100 Days program. (And, it's free!) So, you don't have to have a gym membership to do this!!

Remember to stretch! It can help prevent muscle cramps and soreness. I like to massage my calves after I stretch, too. Foam rollers are great for that, as are hand-held massagers. I have also found that a tennis ball is GREAT for sore muscles.

Again, I want to stress that these are things that are working for me. They may not be your cup of tea, but it has been effective for me. I guess my thought is that if you're moving & burning calories, that's great!

Please let me know if you have questions or comments. I'll respond to them as quickly as I can. Again, the opinions on here are mine. Thanks for reading!

New Rules

2011-10-26T07:38:00.000-05:00

I will stop drinking my coffee with so much sugar. Well, that and I'll stop having that nice hot mug of lard in the morning, too.
If I'm still hungry after eating my food, I will wait to go back for ~~fourths~~ ~~thirds~~ SECONDS (that's the one I was thinking of, sure...)
I will exercise 5 days per week. No, walking next door to the convenience store is NOT considered exercise. Driving to the store (literally across the parking lot) is REALLY not considered exercise.
I will not snack mindlessly. Having a piece of fruit for a mid-morning snack is okay. Having a liter bottle of pop and a king size candy bar is probably not a good idea.
I will eat more veggies. No, ketchup is not a veggie.
I will stop being concerned what other people think when I'm at the gym. Hey, it takes a lot of guts to get my fat-ass to the gym. And, I've got a big gut...so there!
I will remember that my body is a temple, not a flophouse.
I will be patient in this journey. I didn't gain this weight overnight - I won't lose it overnight either.
I will remember what my trainer said. "If at first you don't succeed, put down that jelly donut and get your butt back on that elliptical."
I will remember to take my sweaty, nasty clothes out of my gym bag right when I get home. Cuz, DAMN I stink!
I will be a role-model.
I will remember to breathe.
I will not judge (myself or others). We all have flaws.
I will do this for me.
I will do this for my wife.
I will do this for my children.
I will make my food count.
I will make my exercise count.
I will stop making excuses.
I will be proud of my accomplishments.

My Weight Loss Program (Part One) - Overview

2011-10-25T05:17:00.000-05:00

I had someone on Facebook ask me how I've 16 pounds of weight in less than a month. I'm the first to admit that 16 pounds is a lot to lose in 20 days (or so). I'll also be the first to admit that it's not without a whole lot of work. But, I'm happy to share some information about how I've lost this weight. These are things that I've learned and that work for me. Everyone is different, but if you can take anything away and it helps, great! Hang on to your hats, because it's going to get kind of "mathy" for a bit.

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The information and opinions provided here are believed to be accurate and sound, based on the best judgment available to the authors, but readers who fail to consult appropriate health authorities assume the risk of any injuries. This website is not responsible for errors or omissions. Basically, the following works for me and I wanted to share it with you.

Now that we've gotten that out of the way, I'll tell you some things that I've learned.

Know Your BMR & RMR.
Your BMR (or Basal Metabolic Rate) is the number of calories you burn if you were to stay in bed all day. Your RMR (or Resting Metabolic Rate) is the number of calories you burn during a normal day. There are many websites that allow you to calculate both. I use this site for calculating BMR. Once you know what your BMR is, you can calculate your RMR using the Harris Benedict Equation. Your RMR is basically how many calories you need to burn to maintain your current weight. So, if you want to lose weight - you need to decrease that number.

Decreasing Your Caloric Intake.
One pound of fat is about 3,500 calories. Now that we know our RMR, we can determine how many calories to drop. 500 calories in one day times 7 days equals what? That's right! 3,500! So, if you decrease your caloric intake by 500 calories a day, in one week, you can lose 1 pound! Now, imagine if you were to switch your Mountain Dew for water. One 20oz bottle of Dew has 290 calories in it! (That's a huge savings!)
Increasing Your Exercise.
Let's take this a little further, okay? Cut that Mountain Dew (290 calories) out of your diet AND exercise! You don't have to workout 8 hours a day. I have found that 30 minutes of cardio does WONDERS for me. So, according to Lose It, I burn 572 calories doing the elliptical for 30 minutes (based on my weight and intensity of my workout). So, 290 calories x 7 days a week, plus 572 calories x 5 days a week (I work much less hard on the weekends). That's a grand total of 4,890 calories.
Calories In / Calories Out.I track my calorie intake. Anything that I eat needs to be logged. I use the website Lose It! but there are many others. My Fitness Pal is another good site. The key is to log all of your food. And be honest about it. Try to be as accurate as possible, because many times we'll underestimate our caloric intake. Both sites also allow you to track your caloric expenditures. If you exercise (more on that later), you should log it.
Eating.
While CICO (Calories in/Calories out) is important, that doesn't mean you can eat anything. Having a diet consist of nothing but Snickers and Pop Rocks isn't going to help your body at all. You have to give it fuel. Food = Fuel So give your body premium!

Please let me know if you have questions or comments. I'll respond to them as quickly as I can. Again, the opinions on here are mine. Thanks for reading!

Friend Makin' Monday - Recipe Exchange

2011-10-24T09:03:00.000-05:00

It's Monday again, and my blogger friend Kenlie over at All The Weigh hosts Friend Makin' Monday over at her blog. Today's topic is a recipe exchange.

My "manly" FMM logo

My biggest problem right now is re-training my taste-buds for savoury foods, rather than sweet. I'm a sucker for sweets. Mornings are no exception. Cinnamon rolls are a huge favorite of mine. I've actually dreamed about the cinnamon rolls from Johnson's Corner. Probably the best cinnamon roll I've ever had. It was HUGE! That, plus a couple slices of bacon and some fresh coffee...heaven. Problem is, they're not quite a healthy meal. But one of my healthier favorites are Morning Glory Muffins. Here's a great recipe courtesy of the Mayo Clinic - Morning Glory Muffins

Dietitian's tip: If 18 muffins are too many, freeze those you won't eat and pull them out of the freezer as needed. Freezing the muffins keeps them fresher longer. Warm the muffins slightly before serving.

Morning Glory Muffins

By Mayo Clinic staff

MAKES 18 SMALL MUFFINS

Ingredients:
        1 cup all-purpose (plain) flour
        1 cup whole-wheat flour
        3/4 cup sugar
        2 teaspoons baking soda
        2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
        3/4 cup egg substitute
        1/2 cup vegetable oil
        1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
        2 teaspoons vanilla extract
        2 cups chopped apples (unpeeled)
        1/2 cup raisins
        3/4 cup grated carrots
        2 tablespoons chopped pecans

Directions:
Preheat the oven to 350 F. Line a muffin pan with paper or foil liners. In a large bowl, combine the flours, sugar, baking soda, and cinnamon. Whisk to blend evenly. In a separate bowl, add the egg substitute, oil, applesauce and vanilla. Stir in the apples, raisins and carrots. Add to the flour mixture and blend just until moistened but still slightly lumpy. Spoon the batter into muffin cups, filling each cup about 2/3 full. Sprinkle with chopped pecans and bake until springy to the touch, about 35 minutes. Let cool for 5 minutes, then transfer the muffins to a wire rack and let cool completely.

Nutritional Analysis (per serving):
Serving size:     1 muffin
Calories           180
Cholesterol      0
Protein            3 g
Sodium           163 mg
Carbohydrate 26 g
Fiber               2 g
Total fat           7 g
Potassium        125 mg
Calcium           15 mg
Saturated fat    1 g / Monounsaturated fat    2 g

You matter!

2011-10-21T07:47:00.002-05:00

Go ahead and look back a few months ago at my previous posts. Seriously, go ahead. I'll wait...

You see? I failed. I would consider it 'epic fail'. I didn't start sliding, I didn't get lax in my efforts. I simply quit. And I hated myself for it. I had no one else to blame.

You have the power to change. You are strong enough.

I'm sure I'll slip again. I'll falter. I'll plateau. I'll get frustrated. I am human. But here's what separates the 'now me' from the 'past me'. When I slip up, I'm not going to quit. I'll dig in and work harder.

What's worse? To try and to fail, or to never try at all? Even if you tried and you failed, you've found one way that might not work for you.

Do you want to know how I gained all this weight? I ate too much, and moved too little. Who's fault is it? All of the responsibility falls on me. I can't blame society or my parents or my family for this. I made the bad choices and I have to deal with them.

But you're here. You're reading this blog, and hopefully you can get inspired to make a change. It doesn't have to be a massive change. Make one change today. Don't eat that candy bar, or don't drink that soda. Take the stairs, or park in the back of the parking lot and walk a little farther.

Make one change. Because you're worth it. You are stronger than you know. And you matter! Just by making one small, positive change, you are going to make your life better. Send me an email or leave a comment if you need some help. Check the links to the other blogs. There are so many people that are doing something positive. There are people that have made such dramatic changes and been so successful, that it's truly an inspiration. So, you're not alone. And you have more support that you know! And we'll help you. Do you know why?

Because you matter!!

Wanna hear something cool?

2011-10-20T08:02:00.001-05:00

Ken and I talked about my food choices yesterday. And while I do fairly well on most things, there are some positive changes that I can make. The great thing is that they are fairly easy changes. Less carbs in the evenings, better protein choices, spacing my meals out & drinking more water.

We took body measurements yesterday so that we'll have a baseline to see changes. I asked him if I can do a rough estimation of body fat percentage with the measurements. Instead, we used one of the handheld body fat analyzers. In the same room, there's a scale. I chose not to weigh myself this week, but he and I talked a little bit, and I decided to check my weight. I've lost just over 9 pounds since October 10th. That's about a pound a day, kids. I couldn't believe it.

So, it's now a proven fact. If I can lose weight, so can YOU! I say that because I am an expert at making excuses. "I'll start tomorrow." "Thanksgiving/Christmas/Birthday/Arbor Day is approaching." "I enjoy food too much." I've said all of these things. As soon as I stopped making excuses and started owning my failures (and my successes), things changed!

I'm not doing anything extreme. 30 minutes of cardio every day, and I also do 30 minutes of weights 3x week. Changing your eating habits. That's it. I absolutely count calories. I have to. I work hard at the gym. I push myself. You can too! It's such a great feeling when you start to see the results. I know that I'll plateau. That's okay. I'll make my goals despite brick walls that come up.

I talked to the sales guy and asked him how much a gym membership cost. It's expensive. Really expensive. I doubt I can afford it. There's several options to pay, but the "2 year, get 6 months free" deal is about the best. They have a "3 year, get 12 months free" deal too. The month-to-month membership is overall the most expensive + there's the initiation fee. There are some great benefits to this gym, one being it's about 10 minutes from my work. There are other benefits that I'll likely never use. The gym at our local community center is much more cost effective, but it has a lot less equipment. There's also an Anytime Fitness in my town, but we haven't called them to see how much it would cost for a membership. So, I don't know what I'm going to do. I guess there are pros & cons to each location. And I know that "You can't put a price on your health."

I'm so happy about the progress I've made, and I don't want to lose that. If it were just me, it wouldn't be such a difficult decision. But I don't want my kids walking home from the bus stop in the winter, trudging through snow. SIDENOTE: My job lets me come into work at 6 and be home by 3, so I can pick up my girls from the bus stop. Fall and Spring, they walk home (4 blocks), but in the wintertime I like to pick them up. Having a membership at the local gym, I can take them to the community center and they can do their homework in the library while I workout in the gym. Right now, I'm getting home at 4 or 4:30, so they're home for almost an hour. Plus, if Julie wants to start working out again, it wouldn't be very convenient for her to drive to the gym I'm going to now. Plus, the price they quoted me was for a single person. I don't even want to think about how much a couple's membership is.

I have about a week left on the gym membership. So I have a few days to decide what to do. Any suggestions?

Breaking Records

2011-10-19T08:13:00.000-05:00

I get to the gym on Tuesday, and Ken tells me to hit 2.5 miles in 30 minutes on the elliptical. I set it at level 5, and go to town. Thankfully, I have some kickin' tunes to rock out with. I thought I was going to burn out too quickly. I kept my speed between 4.5 and 5.5 the entire time. (When I started, I was at about 3.0-3.5). I made it, but just barely. 2.5 miles @ level 5 in 29:40. When I finished, he told me that his ultimate goal was to do 3 miles in 30 minutes.

We talked briefly about nutrition and what I should be eating. We're going to go over it in depth today, along with taking measurements. I have my measurements from earlier this year, and they shouldn't have changed much since that time. It will be interesting to see the numbers later today.

My right foot has been hurting since Monday night. I'm not sure why. I don't know if I stepped on something, or what. I only hope it'll start feeling better soon. Speaking of injuries, Julie hurt her knee some time ago. We're not sure how long ago, but it's been getting worse. So she went to the doctor yesterday; and it turns out that she has dislocated her kneecap. The doctor isn't positive of that (without doing an MRI), but she's pretty confident that it's a dislocation. Julie has been treating it with the R.I.C.E. formula, and she has an appointment today with a chiropractor. Hopefully, she'll be pain free soon.

Ken asked me if I had any rewards planned for milestones. I told him that I really didn't. I have some rewards planned for a couple of the bigger milestones, but not for the ones now (when I'm just starting out). Anyone have any suggestions? I figure a trip to an all you can eat buffet and a pitcher of beer probably isn't a good idea.

BodyBugg

2011-10-18T09:30:00.001-05:00

So apparently, I burned just over 5,000 calories yesterday. I don't know how that is possible, but holy cow! That's a big number. I worked hard at the gym yesterday - but I don't know how I could have hit that number...

I've decided NOT to weigh myself this week, for a couple of reasons. #1, I don't want to focus on that number right now; #2, I'm actually a little scared of what the scale will show.

I'm focusing more on the amount of exercise I'm getting and trying to get into a good habit of working out everyday. We're doing measurements on Wednesday - so that will be a good indication if anything has changed since the last time I had done any measurements (March).

A friend came up to me after church on Sunday and told me that I was inspiring him to get fit. Honestly, I don't know how I feel about that. A little pressured, maybe. I don't want to fail again. Not only for me, but for people that read this blog and read my Facebook/Twitter posts.

I haven't really missed my old eating habits. My biggest problems were eating too many bad snacks (all the time) and drinking way too much pop. I'm eating healthier foods, and staying away from the carbonated sugar water.

Gym workouts are going well. Lots of weights and lots of cardio. We're also working on core strengthening exercises. Planks. Oh, how I hate planks. One minute of planks, twice. I was beat. Talk about using your body's weight against itself. I was doing planks a few years ago to strengthen my core after a back injury. And, they're just as hated today as they were then. Here's a picture of the exercise:

I do the top illustration, I'm not attempting what the guy on the bottom does (showoff).

Then, I did what I call the Triple-Ten. 10 minutes on the Arc Trainer (resistance @ 25), 10 on the Treadmill (5 incline/3 mph), 10 on the Elliptical (level 5/not to go below 4 mph). I'm getting better, the treadmill is probably the worst. My calves start feeling the burn about 3 minutes into it. If I go at 2.9, I'm fine; but at 3.0 - not so much. I can't figure out why a tenth would make a difference.

I use a lot of tools to help me lose weight and get in shape. I (sometimes) use a HRM, I have the BodyBugg, fitness DVDs. Online - of course the BodyBugg website, I also track meals & exercise over at Lose It. Twitter/Facebook & this blog helps too. I can read stories of how people struggle & overcome and how good it feels to know that I'm not in this alone.

Friend Makin’ Mondays: Stereotyping

2011-10-17T07:08:00.000-05:00

I killed at the gym on Friday. Ken had me doing some different resistance training things. No machines, just good, old fashioned dumbbells. Then, he tells me to break my record on the elliptical. My previous record is 2.2 miles in 30 minutes. (I don't know if that's good or not). So, I get to 2.25 miles in 27 minutes (YAY!), but then I remember I need to beat my distance in the time allotted. For some reason, I thought that I got to quit after 2.25 miles. I dug in, and hit 2.45 miles in 30 minutes. I'm pretty sure that he'll tell me to break my PR again.

I get home, and there's a box waiting for me. I am the proud owner of a BodyBugg system. I've been wearing it since it finished charging (save the 1 hour/day). I didn't realize that I was burning that many calories. I want to get my body fat percentage tested and take body measurements. Hopefully, it will be a good tool. It's great to see how many steps I'm taking, and how many calories I've been burning. The web interface is good, although the food entry page is kind of clunky to me. The food choices could stand to be updated.

I didn't overeat this weekend, but I could have made some healthier choices. (Though Ken suggested I take a "cheat day".) We had a house-warming party for some friends on Saturday, and spiced apple cider is a weakness of mine. So, I had a few cups of cider. And a few cookies (but, they were small). We had supper, and I loaded up on the raw veggies that I brought over. Sunday was better. Julie had a vendor/craft show in town, so she was busy with that. Church/Sunday School/lunch brought us right up to around 1pm. Which was fine. I felt like I slacked on doing any housework on Sunday. Instead, I sat down at the computer and played Angry Birds. We ordered food from a restaurant before our bible study on Sunday evenings.

Today is a new day, though. I had my oatmeal and a Chobani. I've dropped the amount of sugar packets for my coffee down to two (from 4 or 5). I'm ready to get back into the gym. I felt really guilty for not doing any workouts this weekend. I know that recovery is important, and I don't want to get burned out from exercise...

My FMM logo - because hers is a bit too girly!

My blogger friend, Kenlie has her weekly question up for Friend Makin’ Mondays. The question involves stereotyping.

Have you ever been the victim of stereotyping? If so, will you elaborate? What do you wish people thought of you as they notice you for the first time?

Have I ever been the victim of stereotyping? Honestly, I can't think of a time that I have been. I'm always a little paranoid that people are looking at me and judging me based on my size. I tell myself that I don't care, but I do. I would be lying if I said one of my goals was to look better. Sure, I want to feel fit, and be healthy and active with my wife and kids. But I also want to look good, for myself and my wife.

I wish we would all look past the body, and see the person within. There are so many wonderful people. I truly shouldn't matter what someone looks like. Unfortunately, it does.

Short Post

2011-10-14T08:17:00.001-05:00

I thought I was self-sabotaging myself yesterday. I barely did any workout, and I was hungry all the time. A friend asked me a few questions, and it's quite possible that I wasn't eating *enough*. I found that surprising. I overate yesterday. My (self-imposed) calorie budget is 2,500 calories. I think I was closer to 3,000 yesterday. I didn't eat UN-healthy. Just lots of food.

I grilled some chicken for supper last night, and we had baked potatoes and sauteed zucchini, onions & mushrooms as a side. YUMMY!! Julie's sister told us about an Thai chili sauce that she likes. Julie found a bottle and we used it yesterday to dip the chicken in. WOW!! It was hot, but the heat went away really fast. And it had great flavor.

Yum. (Huy Fong, Sriracha Hot Chili Sauce)

I've been VERY tired the past 2 days. Just something else I have to get used to. Everyone tells me that my body will be less sore and less tired in a couple of weeks. I'm looking forward to it.

Random questions for my reader (readers?)

2011-10-13T01:00:00.000-05:00

So, I used to eat really bad things.
Breakfast - couple (3 or 4) donuts, a bottle of apple or grape juice, maybe more. I might switch it up and have 2 egg sandwiches from a certain fast food place that has a clown for a mascot.
Snacks - chocolate, snack cakes, chips, sweets, other assorted junk. If it were sweet, I'd likely eat it.
Lunch - burritos, more fast food, sub sammies, pizza, chinese takeaway, leftovers.
I actually enjoy eating leftovers, as it is somewhat more healthy than the other stuff, and we're not letting food go to waste.
Snacks (again) - you know the drill.
Drinks - soda, beer, sweet tea, more soda, more beer
Supper - probably the most healthy meal of the day. Would range from chicken or beef - maybe a casserole. Most of the time we'd have a starch + a veg with it, though. Those were our 'sit-down' meals. If we were in a rush (who isn't with kids in school & activities) - it might be subs, frozen pizza, other fast food.
Evening - cake, cookies, ice cream, etc.

So now, I've made some changes.
Oatmeal & yogurt (and coffee) for breakfast, some sort of healthy snack mid-morning, some ham & cheese (no bread) for lunch with carrots, and fruit. I usually have another yogurt for lunch, too. Something healthy about an hour prior to working out. A protein bar + lots of water post workout.

I'm concerned that I'm going to get burned out on my food choices. I'm okay right now, but Wednesday morning, I was craving a donut (or 6). I held off that demon, and ate my usual. I almost left work and bought something. But, I held out. Wednesday at lunch I had this:

Healthy Choice Fresh Mixer - Sweet & Sour Chicken. 390 calories, 12g protein, 78g carbs, 400mg Sodium. Probably not the best choice. But, I guess it's better than eating a "value" meal, right? I ate some grapes & carrots with it, and had a piece of string cheese, too. I used about 650 calories for lunch. (Breakfast was a mere 339 calories.)

So - the questions I have:

#1. What are your favorite breakfasts? Things that are healthy & you love eating?

#2. How about lunch? Anything you love?

#3. How many calories do you aim for during meals? Or do you not track it that closely & just focus on healthy eating?

#4. What do you do for that major craving that hits?

Tuesday's workout & a disappointment

2011-10-12T07:02:00.001-05:00

Tuesday was scheduled to be 30 minutes on the Arc Trainer. After I arrived at the gym, Ken switched it up:

10 minutes on the Arc Trainer
10 minutes on the treadmill - 5 incline/3.0 mph
10 minutes of the elliptical

I was VERY thankful for that. If anyone has used an Arc Trainer, you know how 'fun' they are.

Ever used one of these? Oh...they're fun!!

I thought it would actually be easier than the elliptical. WRONG!! Those 10 minutes couldn't have been over fast enough. WOW that was tough. I was thankful to get on the treadmill. I ended up doing 15 minutes on the elliptical. I wanted to hit the 1 mile mark; so I did.

I buzzed home and showered because I was scheduled to give blood. I got to the site, filled out the paperwork and had my pulse taken. Then, she took it again. She asked me if I felt stressed or nervous, or if I rushed to get there. I told her no, but I had worked out about an hour prior to that. She told me I couldn't donate because my heart rate was too high. It needs to be below 100, and mine was 104. I couldn't wait/rest because it had been more than 20 minutes since I had done any activity. So, I had to take the "walk of shame". First time in 20 years that I've been denied. So, that was a disappointment.

According to Lose It! I was about 700 calories below budget yesterday. It's been good to be able to calculate calories in and out. I'd love to get my hands on a BodyBugg or a GoWear Fit. (HINT/HINT!) I would think that would help in better tracking my calories burned. The only problem with Lose It! is that the foods/activities are slightly dated. I was told by Ken that My Fitness Pal is good, though.

Today - I have weight training + cardio. I'm kind of sore today, and wasn't expecting that. But everyone tells me that it's usually not the day after, but it's 2 days after that you will feel the soreness. So, OUCH! Once I get moving, I'll feel better, I'm sure.

I got to work this morning and was really craving something sweet for breakfast. I've been able to say 'no' so far. My oatmeal & yogurt was good, but it wasn't a donut. I need to start switching things up for breakfast. Suggestions?

Excellent Monday

2011-10-11T06:55:00.001-05:00

I went into the gym yesterday afternoon and was not prepared for the workout that Ken put me though. He had me doing chest presses, then seated-single arm-rows. I did 10 sets of 10 each. I wasn't sure if I could finish the last few sets of chest presses. Ken pushed me through and I made it!
Next, deadlifts & torso rotation. Then, it was something like a deadlift, into a curl, into an overhead press - then back down. It really got my heart pumping.
I still had 30 minutes of cardio to do! I started out okay, but about 14 minutes into it, I really felt drained. I wasn't sure if I could go on. I pushed through and just went one minute at a time. I got to about 28 minutes and realized I was almost at 2 miles. So, I told Ken, "I might as well hit two miles." He agreed, and I made it.

But, the best part was that I hadn't stepped on a scale in almost a month. I weighed myself yesterday and am now at 352.4 pounds. Which is a 7.4 pound loss. Granted, I was wearing heavier clothes in September. I am truly amazed at seeing that loss. Julie was really proud of me!

I finished yesterday about 500 calories below budget. THAT felt really great. I acknowledged my hunger, and ate when I was hungry. I put some thought into everything I ate yesterday, too. I hope this is a trend I can continue.

This morning, I'm very sore. (I can't imagine why!) I am looking forward to today. Ken will have me on a new piece of cardio equipment. It's not quite an elliptical, but it works in the same way. Instead of your foot coming up, it'll stay flat. I wish I could remember what it was called, though!

I'm slowly learning the importance of food being fuel. It's been a struggle all of my life, because food has always been the center of important events. And, that's okay - but I can't let it be the center of my life. And I need to learn that it's okay to indulge - but not all the time, and don't overdo it. I'm starting to get over my feelings like I need to have something sweet after lunch and before bed. I can live without the candy bar; I don't need that soda.

I've updated my Goals page to reflect my current goals and things I'd like to accomplish!

Until next time...

Friend Makin' Monday - Taboo Topics

2011-10-10T06:46:00.003-05:00

A blogger friend, Kenlie, poses the questions over at her blog: All The Weigh. It's our fun job to answer, post back to her blog and see what everyone else thinks. Okay, here goes!

    How often do you read/watch the news? Watch - rarely. Read - everyday. I read the local news to stay on top of everything that's going on. I don't normally go onto non-local sites (CNN/Fox).
    What is your opinion on beauty pageants? Ugh. I think they give young girls the wrong idea on what's important in life. It's okay to look good - but I think the women that are 'chosen' aren't a good representation of 'normal'.
    Would you date/marry someone who has different religious views than you? How different? Julie and I differ (sometimes). But I think we're on the same page when it comes to religion. I don't think I could date someone who wasn't a Christian, though. That would be tough. I'm very happy that I don't need to worry about that!
    Do you follow politics? Not as much as I should. I need to follow it more closely. The problem I have is it all seems so 'doom & gloom'. I guess I have the Ostrich mentality.
    How often do you talk about sex in your daily life and/or on your blog? Nope.
    Does it make you uncomfortable when someone asks you about your salary/income? Does it ever happen? It doesn't really happen too much for me. I don't think it's anyone's business. If someone makes more that I do, big deal. But I don't really care. We're not rich, but we're not living on the street, either.
    Do you tag friends and family in pictures that you post on FB, or do you seek permission first? I just don't post pictures on Facebook. If I did, I would likely just tag the people. I think most of my friends would be okay with it. The key is to not post anything that could be construed as inappropriate. If it's a family picture - or a group picture with friends, I'd tag it so they know it's there and can grab it if they want.
    Can you be friends with people who have opposing views on ‘taboo’ topics? Why not?? It can make for lively discussions. It's one of the things that makes us, us. We are all different, and we all have differing opinions. I'm willing to hear your take on something, but all I ask is that you're willing to hear mine.

Monday Post - Part One

2011-10-10T06:31:00.002-05:00

I'm trying to be vigilant about my calories. I want to try to have as accurate of a number as I can. I don't want to underestimate my calories, then learn I'm way too low. And, while I am 'restricting' my calorie count - I'm NOT restricting my food (with the exception of a few things). If I want that piece of cake, I will weigh the options. Of course, it's easier to weigh those options when there is NO CAKE in the house.

Exceptions to that rule:

Soda - Some of you might call it 'pop'. I won't get into semantics about what it should be called. The fact is it's totally empty calories. From what I've read, diet is just as bad for you.
Sweets - Candy/Candy bars/snack cakes/etc. If I want chocolate, I'll have it. But I will not spend any more money on that junk.

I work right across the street from a convenience store. Well, right across the parking lot, actually. It's far too easy to walk next door and make poor choices. Especially when there's nothing else close. But, if I don't go in there, I won't be tempted. I mean, it's bad enough that it's right there - taunting me.

On Friday, I went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the elliptical. I hit 25 minutes, then felt kind of sick to my stomach. I pushed through it, but when I finished, I felt shaky. I had eaten some food about 30 minutes before my workout. I don't know what the deal was. Not enough food, wrong kind of food...I don't know.

My grandmother's 90th birthday was on Saturday. So, we drove a couple of hours to visit with family and celebrate her birthday. There were ham sammies, cake, and punch. I didn't overeat, but I probably didn't need to eat two pieces of cake. Or 4 glasses of punch. My brother rode along - and about 5 minutes after we left our house, he checked his blood sugar (he's diabetic). It was at 62. So, we stopped - as everyone else in the car was hungry too. When we got home from the party, my brother and I had a couple beers, plus supper...

Sunday was still difficult, but not bad. I think I went over for the day. I did end up having some diet root beer yesterday. I was having a serious craving for it, and I decided that I am not going to stress about it. More family activities, but it was okay. I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I will be watching myself a bit more, though.

I'm trying to limit my caloric intake to 2,500/day, which has proven to be kind of hard for me. Ken told me not to worry so much about my calories, because I'm doing really well exercising. I'm tracking my calories with Lose It! and it's been helpful. My BMR is 2,960 - that's the number that's given to me when I put my info in the calculators. Then, they give me "Sedentary", "Lightly Active", etc. I just don't know what number to go with! I feel like I need to know where I'm starting from to know where I'm going...

A couple of questions for everyone:

How many of you use nutrition bars or shakes or protein powders? I was looking at some shakes, and it was 270 calories for 1 serving! It was a pre-workout thing. I understand the importance of having something in your stomach when you go to workout. But, if I drank one of those, I would feel like I'd have to put in another 30 minutes to burn that off! I'm sure they have their place. But for someone like me, who is trying to lose weight and decrease my calorie count, I don't think they're necessary.

What about post-workout? Water is great, I drink during my workouts. After, though? Is one of the VitaminWater that have 0 calories okay? I figured maybe it was - because it had electrolytes and vitamins. Yes/No?

FIRST DAY!

2011-10-07T06:11:00.001-05:00

I changed into some workout clothes, and met my personal trainer, Ken over by an intimidating looking machine. I mean, this thing looks more in place during the Spanish Inquisition. (Actually, it didn't. But there were some things in there that looked more like torture devices.) It did look like a refrigerator that wanted to give me a hug! It was a "Functional Trainer"

Ken had me doing chest presses. Then, we moved over to another machine to do arm curls. We went back and forth, chest press/arm curl/chest press/arm curl. I went back and forth several times. Then, deadlifts with dumbbells. I did a few sets of those, then onto medicine ball work. Torso Rotation, then Shoulder Presses with dumbbells. I'm not sure how long the resistance training took; 20 minutes? Ken let me rest for a few minutes, then it was time for some cardio!

He asked what I wanted to do, and since I'm most comfortable on the elliptical right now, that's what I chose. I've never done 30 minutes on the elliptical, so that was going to be a challenge for me. Ken just told me to do my best. There was a huge difference from when I was doing this alone. Ken was there, encouraging me. And, I was going too fast on the elliptical - so I was getting tired too quickly. Before I knew it 30 minutes had passed and I was done!

I posted a few days ago that I was worried that there would be other people looking at me or judging me. I didn't get that, though. About 10 minutes into it, I thought "What do I care what other people think? I'm not doing this for them!" And that's what I need to keep in the front of my mind. Ultimately, I'm not doing this for anyone else but me. I want to look good for my wife. And, I want to be fit enough to play with my kids. But, I'm not doing this to please them (or anyone else). I'm doing this so I will feel better, look better, and be healthier. So what does it matter if you go into a gym and you think people are looking at you? Don't let it bother you!!! Ken told me that we are all at the gym for the same reason, when you get right down to it....

Julie made this OUTSTANDING tomato soup last night. Fresh, garden tomatoes, some basil (from our garden, too). It was similar to this recipe from Better Homes. That soup, plus a grilled cheese sandwich...YUM. Now that it's starting to get cooler, I'm sure soup will be on the menu more. It's just good, comfort food.

I think I ended the day under budget for my calories. Today - 30 minutes of cardio! I feel sore this morning, but I feel good. So, the lesson here? If I can do an hour workout...anyone can!!

Today - Everything Changes

2011-10-06T07:35:00.001-05:00

I met with a personal trainer on Tuesday. We sat down and discussed my goals. He and I toured the gym he works at & he showed me how to use some equipment and how to do some exercises. He offered his services for free for a month, and I have access to the gym for a full month, too.

Today is the first day. It's the first day of my new life. I am excited - but I'm nervous too. My head is filled with doubts. I don't want to fail again. I really want to be healthy and be a positive example for my wife and kids. It will be hard work, but it's going to be so worth it.

I'm not sure what we'll start with. But I know that he wants me to do 30 minutes of cardio every day. Plus we're going to be doing resistance training, too. I think that will be another 30 minutes - 3 times per week. The goal with resistance training is to gain muscle and strengthen my core. Something I didn't know!

So, this morning, my breakfast was this:
- Quaker Oatmeal - High Fiber - Cinnamon Swirl Flavor
- Yoplait Light - Harvest Peach
- Coffee (gotta have my coffee)
Big change today for me, though. I added Truvia to my coffee instead of sugar. I can drink my coffee black, and do so on occasion. But I prefer a bit of sweetness to it. The Truvia might take some getting used to, though.

Julie and I have a great network of friends from our church. One of Julie's friends is undergoing gastric sleeve surgery today. We were invited to their house last weekend, and had a great time hanging out with friends. Her husband grilled this amazing chicken. (note to self, find out what the seasonings he used were...) We talked about her upcoming surgery and her thoughts. She told us that people have told her that she's taking the "easy" way out. Since when is any weight loss easy? Seriously? Don't you think that if it were "easy", we'd all be looking exactly the way we want?

I'm don't want to be "ripped", but I just don't want to be fat anymore. (That's not entirely true. I wouldn't pass on having nice abs, etc.) I don't want to be tired all the time, and I want to be able to do ride my bike with my kids. I'd love to fold laundry without breaking a sweat!

So - what's next? The goal that the trainer gave me was a 10 pound loss by November 1st. I'm not looking for miracles, I'm looking to get healthy. I have a lot of weight to lose, but right now, I'm not focusing on that right now. I just want to focus on the 10 pound loss.

"Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies."

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Dear God,

I'm sorry that I haven't honored You with my body. I have been selfish and disobedient. Today is the first day that I change that. Amen.

What would you call this post?

2011-10-04T07:58:00.000-05:00

More ramblings today...

My kids are in volleyball. I know that one of them loves it, and the other girl - the jury is still out on that one. The practices and games are held at the community center which also has the exercise equipment. For $5.00, I got a day pass to go work out while the kids were at practice. 11 minutes on the elliptical was all I could handle. I wiped it down and went over to the seated elliptical. I was able to do 22 minutes on that. I finished with a few sets in the weight room.

This morning, I had oatmeal (with raisins) and a Chobani. I'll have a couple of cups of coffee this morning, too. I'd really like to switch to Truvia all the time for the sweetener in my coffee. In the summertime, I like adding half & half to my coffee. But that's a lot of calories, too!

I'm trying to cut soda completely out of my life. Julie used to drink Mountain Dew (years ago), and then switched to Diet Coke. But, we think the artificial sweetener in the diet soda doesn't agree with her. So, she has switched to unsweetened tea. I like tea, but I like it more southern style (or from Long Island). At work, I had been using those drink packets, you know the ones. You add it to a bottle of water and shake. What's your opinion on those? Are they not good for you? Will the artificial sweeteners mess with my weight loss?

I have some other goals. Now, my main goals are:

Lose weight (duh)
Learn to eat healthy
Be fit enough to play with my kids when they want to do something physical

While they might sound silly to some people, they're still my goals. Examples:

To wear shirts that I can tuck in. There is the style of having your shirt untucked, but I feel sloppy when I don't have my shirt tucked in. (I'm talking about dress shirts-and some t-shirts)
I would love to shop places that didn't have a big and tall department. Big and tall? Uh, I'm not tall....
Years ago, I used to ride my bike a lot. One of my dreams was to wear a cycling jersey. I want to be fit enough that I can do that.

I also have some..."I don't know if that'll happen" goals:

Stop having to use my CPAP - because, you know, a guy wearing a CPAP mask is about the hottest thing ever!
Stop having to take Requip. I think my PLMD/RLS is related to my lack of exercise/obesity.

I'm meeting with a personal trainer this afternoon. I'm excited, but nervous. What's really outstanding is the support I get from my wife. She sounded so proud that I went to the gym yesterday. Coolest.Wife.Ever.

T-Minus 24+ hours and counting...

2011-10-03T11:20:00.000-05:00

I'm meeting with a personal trainer tomorrow at 1PM. He's a friend-of-a-friend, and soon to be good friend, I'm sure. He works at a gym that's about 10 minutes from my work. But the cool thing is that he used to work at the gym that I had a membership at (and soon will again). That means, he knows what equipment is there to work with.

I bought a heart rate monitor some time ago - but I've never used it. I don't know if it's something I even need. Several years ago, I worked for a company that made a system for runners that tracked your speed - and it included a HRM. I used it a few times, and it was good to see if I was working my hardest. Do you use one? Is it an effective tool?

So, I feel like tomorrow is my new "official" start date. I've been trying to keep my eating in check - but I haven't been exercising. And up until about a week ago, I hadn't been eating remotely healthy at all. This last week, I've at least been aware of what I've been doing. Totally sounds like a cop-out, doesn't it? (Yes, I KNOW that scotch-a-roo bar wasn't an appropriate breakfast, even though it has cereal and peanut butter in it.)

But, today, on the verge of starting something new - I worried that I would be like this:

But, I haven't. Time to start logging my food again. A great thing about logging your food is when you do that...you SEE it. "If I eat this king size , then I have to log it." Never mind about the 8,000 calories that thing has...but if I have to see it on my food log? END.OF.THE.WORLD.

We went to an apple orchard yesterday, and in their store, there's caramel apples, fudge, apple pie, apple cider, apple crisp. Oh, and they sell apples, too. So, the kids wanted a caramel apple, and that was fine. I bought a few pounds of Golden Supreme apples. The Mutsu weren't ready yet. I'll be going back out there when they are ready, though!

Is it just me with this? I go to the gym, and I think that all these people are looking at me, thinking "Uh, what's tubby doing here? Shouldn't he be qualifying for the national candy eating championship?" I know it's in my head - at least I think it is. I know it's another way of self-sabotage. But, what do YOU do when that voice starts creeping in?

FMM: Dream Vacation

2011-10-03T10:28:00.004-05:00

The question this week (from All The Weigh)is this: If you were given two tickets that you (and someone you chose) could use to fly anywhere in the world, where would you go? And why?

This is actually on my bucket list. (Yes, I have a bucket list). 2 tickets to go to Europe with my wife, Julie. I want to visit London - as I feel like an ex-pat sometimes. But I also want to visit Norway, where most of my ancestors come from. And, Ireland - for Julie's ancestors. Then, finish it off with a long vacation in Tuscany.

Someday...

Question

2011-09-29T11:07:00.002-05:00

So, looking at BMR calculators and weight loss calculators have made me thoroughly confused. They seem to be different...

Is there one that's accurate for caloric intake, and how many calories I need to be (not) eating??

I'm Blessed

2011-09-29T09:05:00.001-05:00

Julie and I have some friends from church. They are a wonderful couple - very friendly and helpful. I consider him to be a mentor. He's a great man, and he has guided me and helped meover the past few years. His wife, owns a neat store in town. It's a floral shop, with all sorts of other fun things.

The reason I bring this up - I went into her shop last week. She told me that one of their friends is a personal trainer and was asking about me. I Facebooked him, and we talked a bit. He works in a gym near my office. He told me to call him and we'd work out a time to go over a workout plan and some suggestions about diet. Well, I put it off and started making excuses for not calling him. Even though he was offering to do this at no charge, I was still trying to make excuses. He called me yesterday. He wanted to set up a time to get me back into a routine.

Earlier this year, I was just going to the gym and doing my own thing. I would walk a bit, do the elliptical a bit, ride a bike...etc. My only goal is to lose weight. I would love to gain muscle (especially in my arms) - but right now, I want to drop the fat. That is my primary goal.

I keep thinking of things to sabotage myself. Like, trying to find the time to go to the gym - having healthy foods at work. I think the personal trainer call was a "No-More-Excuses" wake up. I go next week to talk to him at his gym. He knows the layout of the gym in my town, so that helps!

I think we're going to an apple orchard this weekend with some friends. I'm pretty excited about it. I love going out to the orchard in the fall. We have a family picture that has all 4 of us on a hayrack ride from 2010. We have pictures of the girlies when they were (maybe??) four? We've gone there several times over the past few years and always had a great time. Plus, they have Mutsu apples (otherwise known as Crispin). Now, I love Honeycrisp apples, but they're so darned expensive! And Golden Delicious are good, too. But the Mutsu are my all time favorite now.

Do you have any fall traditions? Any things that you simply can't miss during this perfect season?

Randomness

2011-09-28T09:16:00.000-05:00

Julie ordered pictures from Snap Fish some time ago, and we received them yesterday. Going through the older pictures is so much fun. To remember when the girlies were toddlers, fall photos when they covered themselves in leaves, or photos of family. I had quite a shock when I looked at one photo in particular. The girls were only 6 months old. I looked thin! The funny thing is - I wasn't!! I was still overweight. I think that the t-shirt I was wearing was a XXL.

I read posts of other bloggers and I'm so proud of their progress. And I want that. I want to be a guy that people say, "Look at HIM! He's so healthy now!" Of course right now, I'd be happy if they wouldn't say "Hey Chunk! Do the truffle shuffle!!" (People don't say that to me. At least...I don't think they do.)

As kind of a follow-up to my previous post, I wanted to elaborate on the the stomach pains that I experience. Anymore, I consider them normal. I have been in and out of the hospital & doctor's offices too many times to count. They've done ultrasounds, CT scans, X-Ray imaging. I'm convinced that it has to do with my weight and the food that I eat. The doctors have basically said "Uh, we don't know what's causing you to have stomach pain." They thought it was caused by a problem with my Gall Bladder, so it's been removed. The pain continued. They now think it may be that I'm prone to having bowel obstructions. But, there's been no definitive answers.

On another note, I think that Vicodin doesn't serve to actually relieve any pain. It just knocks you out, so you can't feel anything. I think it can also give you a wicked case of nausea. So between the aching jaw and nearly constant headache since Monday - I've felt like I'm on the verge of throwing up, too! I have a swollen mouth and lip to boot. Well, at least I'll have a new tooth soon.

I found a posting about healthy eating. Being a Christian, this really hit home for me. This is from The Better Mom:

A former pastor of ours once shared candidly about his struggle with food. His words have stuck with me ever since. He had struggled with overeating all of his life and said that regularly he would stand in front of the cupboard or fridge and war with himself and his sin.

And he’d sense God asking, “So — what do you love more — Me or the food?"

"What do you love more? Do you love Me or the food more?" It can't be both. And, yes according to the bible, overeating is a sin. In fact, eating food without first giving thanks to God for it, or recognizing God as provider makes us a glutton.

²² Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. ²³ For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. ²⁴ Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!
Luke 12:22-24 (NIV)

But, how hard is it for us to do? For me, it's been such an internal struggle. I have eaten an entire container of cookies before, all the while saying "I don't care!" I gave in because I didn't have the self-worth to care. It's time I remember how good I feel after I exercise. How proud my wife is when I keep up with it. And how awesome it is to honor God by loving Him more than food...

Ouch...

2011-09-27T08:58:00.001-05:00

Sometime during 2010, I broke a tooth. Really broke it. Like, "It needs to be removed," broke. The dentist talked options, and I decided to go with an implant.

An implant is basically a small post that is put into your bone for stability for the new tooth. I needed to have a bone graft done first, as I had underlying problems with the bone area. I had the implant done yesterday. It was an experience. I hope I never have to go through it again. Ouch, ouch, ouch. They used a local, and didn't gas me or put me under. The 10 minute drive home was excruciating. When I got home, Julie told me to go get into comfy clothes and lay down to get some rest. That evening, I had a yogurt and a pudding.

Today, I'm still in pain - but I have pain medication and I'm looking forward to 8 weeks from now, as I'll have a new tooth!!

So - that's the newest.

I need to make a change. It doesn't have to be big - just a single, healthy change. I don't know why I keep putting this off. I don't know if it's fear or laziness or something else. But, if I make just ONE change. ONE thing - that's better than the status quo, right??

Other things that bother me about being as huge as I am:

I can't use the balance board on Wii Fit. I'm too fat for it.
I have irritation from where my belt buckle hits my stomach.

And it hurts...

I sweat - a lot. I start sweating when I get out of the shower. I sweat when I fold laundry. And when I vacuum. And when I do any number of things...
I tend to feel sick a lot. Stomach pains - minor enough that I try to ignore them - but I shouldn't even have them.
When I was exercising, I didn't need to be on Requip. As soon as I stopped, I needed it again.
I use a CPAP. My wife and I were watching "Mike and Molly" last night. Mike uses a CPAP. Julie said "Yep, that's how hot you look when you wear it!" Which, I already knew. I wouldn't call it a mood-breaker, but I doubt looking like the elephant man helps anyone feel affectionate.

How much do I fail?

2011-09-22T13:06:00.002-05:00

I have been avoiding my blog. I have been avoiding anything to do with my blog. I've tried to tell myself to get back on the treadmill/elliptical/whatever.

But, I haven't. And, I've felt like a huge failure. Huge? Or, maybe I should say something else...husky, chunky, fat...

The contest I took part in last spring didn't help me. I was really bummed out about not winning; and while it was going on, I had the misguided goal of getting fit for THAT, not for myself. So, when I didn't win, I gave up. Julie wasn't happy about that. I need to recommit to this journey.

I don't know if I should put this out here...but here goes.
Things I hate about me:

I rarely tuck my shirts in, mostly because I have a massive gut.
I can't tie my shoes without getting winded.
I can't vacuum my house without breaking into a sweat.
I hate feeling guilty for eating something I know I shouldn't - but I do it anyway.
I'm tired - all the time.
I won't ride my bike, because I'm afraid I'll break it.

I could go on, but I won't. I need to get back into good habits. I'm just having trouble kick starting it. My brother sent me a text message last week. He suggested a challenge between he and I. We weigh ourselves today - then, after 1 year - the person who has lost the least amount of weight has to pay the other $5.00 for every pound difference + $100.00. Might work.

I guess this might be a better challenge. I lose weight to be around for a long time for my wife and kids. I know what I need to do, I'm just having a problem getting started back up.

GAH!

2011-04-06T08:30:00.000-05:00

I want to apologize to my faithful readers. I have not been keeping up with my blogging duties as of late. It's been...what? 10 days? I could go on about why I haven't blogged; but what good would that do?

Truth is, I haven't been exercising, either. I went to the gym on Monday, though. I managed to get some walking in & about 13 or 14 minutes on the elliptical. I know now what people are talking about when they say they can feel it if the don't go regularly. Yes, I could have done the BL DVD I have, or any sort of fitness. But, I didn't.

I also fell (walked?) back into my old eating habits. I was in a seriously crappy attitude all last week. I would talk about what the previous sentence means, but I'm not really ready to talk about it right now. I talked to Julie on Thursday about my attitude. She lent an ear, listened carefully, and offered advice. But, she didn't sugar coat anything (probably because I would have eaten it). Julie knows how to talk to people and give them what they need to hear. Notice I said "need", not want. I may have not wanted to hear what she was telling me, but it was what I needed to hear. It's one of the many things I love about my wife. She knows me, and knows how to get to the crux of the matter. She's not concerned about saying what's nice - rather then telling the truth.

So, I'm trying my best to get back on track. I haven't been logging my calories, and I haven't weighed myself for quite some time. Julie and I talked about how we can both get to the gym to start exercising more. I've pretty much got it made. Julie needs to be able to go more than on the weekends, though. So we've been talking about how to make that happen.

I'm not going to let a slip up become failure. I've done that too many times in the past. I can't keep living like this - watching things from the sidelines, out of breath, etc. It's really hard, because I know that I can't see results right away. It takes time, and I need to keep reminding myself of that. We want that quick fix. But I want it to be forever. I want to learn the tools we need to live healthier!

Multiple Monday

2011-03-28T08:21:00.000-05:00

I need to tell you about my weekend. First, I will say this up front. I am starting to log my food and exercise today. It's time to get back on track.

Friday - the girlies each had 2 friends over for a sleepover. Six 10 year old girls singing and dancing around the living room. WOW - that was loud. J made a cake for each of the girls, and we made pizza for supper. Too many slices of pizza, and cake+ice cream...ugh. Saturday was pancakes & sausage. Let's just end there for the "food" portion of the weekend. We'll put down that Josh overate all three days.

We made it to the gym on Sunday. J did 8 minutes on the elliptical and 20 on the bike. I didn't do so well. I was tired and didn't really want to be there. I made it 13 or 14 minutes on the elliptical, then played some basketball. Walked a few laps around the track and I was ready to go.

The girls big birthday presents were new bikes. One daughter couldn't quite decide what she wanted. Which was okay - not a problem at all. J took her on Sunday to look at other bikes. I stayed home and did the housework. Several loads of laundry, dishes, vacuuming, etc. PLUS, we're having our living room painted today - so we needed to get everything moved away from the walls. My back hurts today, I'm sore, and pretty tired.

In the interest of logging my food (which I do over at Lose It), I was going to post my breakfast:
1 package of "Oat Revolution" oatmeal - Cinnamon Roll - 160 calories
about 30 raisins in the oatmeal - 50 calores
1 cup of yogurt - Yoplait Duets - 80 calories
coffee w/ sugar - 64 oz - 200 calories

I know that I shouldn't drink my coffee with sugar. And while I agree, it's one thing that I really won't compromise on. I am going to try to cut back the sugar I use, however.

Is there anything that you won't compromise on?

Friend Makin' Monday!

2011-03-28T07:40:00.000-05:00

FMM: A Few More Gender-Friendly Questions

1) What is your favorite physical feature? I would say my smile. I would say that, but I'm missing a tooth at the moment.

2) List three adjectives that describe you. Funny, Smart, Loved

3) How old were you when you had your first kiss? I think I was 15 or 16. I'm pretty sure I was 15.

4) Do you believe in God? Yes - my faith goes deeper than belief in God. I have a personal relationship with Jesus. That may sound strange, or you may think I'm weird, but I've re-discovered my faith, and I'm proud of it.

5) How often do you watch the news? I don't watch the news very often. I read the news every day.

Can't wait to read everyone's answers! Thanks to Kenz for posting these.

Short post today

2011-03-25T11:06:00.000-05:00

I made it to the gym yesterday. I wouldn't say that I did a good job yesterday. I would likely say that I did an OUTSTANDING job. (Not to brag, or anything).
22 minutes on the elliptical
30 minutes on the stationary
15 minutes of weight training
I thought about doing some running, but I was getting tired and I knew I had to get the girlies from school.

They're having a sleepover tonight - last night was filled with J making cakes and I was trying to get the house picked up and cleaned. J wasn't feeling the greatest; that was kind of rough for me, because there wasn't anything I could do. I hate that feeling. I'm sure it was worse for her, though. We did get the house vacuumed, several loads of laundry done, J got the cakes frosted.

Need to try to get back on track - I need a reset button!

Yet Another Random Post About Nothing....

2011-03-24T08:41:00.000-05:00

My daughters' birthday yesterday. They (twins) turned 10 - so it was kind of a big deal. We went out to eat, their choice. I ordered the fish & chips (I know, BAD choice). The fish was so overcooked, it was nearly inedible. I cut into it, and tried the first piece. Have you ever had fish that tasted like mud? I'm not a picky eater...but I almost spit this out. So, no supper for me last night. I sent it back. Of course, they wanted to know if I would like to order something else. The rest of the fam had their food, and I had lost my appetite from the breaded mudfish. I don't normally order "new" things on menus. I stick to the same thing at the restaurants that we frequent. My thought is, "Why risk it? I like this, so I'll get it!" Yep. Trying something "different" bit me in the ass again.

When we got home, the girlies opened their gifts from us. They were very happy with what they received. Cake and ice cream followed. We were all pretty tired from the day. We tucked the girls into bed, and I cleaned the kitchen while J was able to sit and relax. I was so tired, I ended up going to bed really early last night. No workout done either...

It would be nice if the weather would straighten itself out. I think it was about 20F this morning. There were thunderstorms on Tuesday! I'm surprised it didn't snow last night, actually. However, there is a chance for snow until Saturday. I've just felt crappy the past week. I told J that I felt "off". I'm not sick, but I've got the *blahs*. Would LOVE some sun, that's for sure. (Lo & Behold! I look outside, and there's sun peeking over the horizon!) Shades are normally drawn in our office. Why they're drawn, I have NO idea.

I don't think I'll do a weigh-in today or tomorrow. I know I've gained, and I know I should weigh...but it'll be a bad number. I want to get back on track, and start whipping this bod into shape!!

So, we will be taking the girlies and their friends to the circus on Saturday. That should be...interesting. We'll see how it goes!! They're having a sleepover on Friday. Make your own pizzas, popcorn, sweets, cake and ice cream...pancakes & sausage for breakfast on Saturday...then the circus. UGH! Maybe the circus could use a fat man for a freak show.... :) If I find one, I'll let him know! Or, maybe they could use an incredible shrinking man. THAT sounds more my style!

So, what's YOUR cure when you feel "off" and don't want to do anything? Do you MAKE yourself go? Or do you just live through it, knowing it'll only last a little while?

A Note to my wife and daughters

2011-03-23T07:44:00.000-05:00

Just want to throw this out here. 10 years ago, my wife and I were at the hospital. At 10:15 am and 10:28 am our girlies entered this world. From late night feedings (where we BOTH were awake and feeding them), to carrot colored stains on the carpet. From silly videos (whatcha eatin'?) to sweet, precious moments.

I was looking at the pictures from when they were babies and toddlers a few days ago. My, how they've grown!

It's a challenge sometimes! I love you, J. Thank you for making such beautiful little girls. I have been blessed beyond comparison. They are crazy, goofy, loud, silly, funny, sweet, adorable, lovable girls - and I wouldn't change my life for a second.

To my daughters:
You are the most precious thing in my life. We have crazy moments sometimes, and I get angry or frustrated sometimes, but I love you the same. Everyday is a new day, with a new outlook and new challenges to face. You inspire me, you make me laugh and make me proud. I'm so happy to be your dad. Happy Birthday!

A renewed effort

2011-03-22T06:51:00.000-05:00

I've totally felt like giving up the past few days. Since Thursday, really. I didn't want to go to the gym, but I went anyway. I didn't think I did a good workout, but 30 minutes is still better than sitting on my duff. I didn't go on Friday. Instead, J and I went out to eat with my brother and his SO. We ate at a really nice Russian place. Food was outstanding, and the beer was really good too. Saturday/Sunday - let's not talk about those.

I need to kick this into high gear. Start tracking my calories - NO EXCEPTIONS! I have this habit of not tracking if I'm having a bad day. Like, somehow if I don't put them down, they don't exist!

I also need to make solid, definable goals for my #7daychip. So, here they are:

I will not binge. Everything I eat will be thought out. I will not give into impulse/emotional/binge eating.
I will exercise for a total 240 minutes. That breaks down to 40 minutes/day for 6 days.
I will track my calorie intake - no matter what it is.

I let it slip that my wife makes a killer dip. She doesn't really "do" recipes, so here's our attempt:

1/4 c light mayo (NOT Miracle Whip)
1/2 c sour cream
1 t dill weed
2 t Tuscany Blend Bread Dipping herbs from Dean Jacobs.

Let it sit for a while for the flavors to marry & you're good to go! It's got a garlic-y, dilly, Italian taste to it. SO good...

Don't have the herbs? You can use Tuscan Sunset from Penzey's Spices. Add a bit of garlic to that, and yum! We use Garlic Garlic from Tastefully Simple.
Tuscan blend seasonings are basically a blend of Basil, Oregano, Red Bell Peppers, Green Bell Peppers, Black Pepper, Garlic, Onion, Fennel and Rosemary. Some (Dean Jacobs) add sun-dried tomatoes to the mix. The key is the "Italian" type herbs, mixed with dill. It makes for an outstanding chip/veggie dip.

2 T would be right around 65 calories, I think. I wonder if you could substitute plain yogurt for the mayo?

We haven't tried making our own blend yet. I would think it'd be pretty easy, actually. Italian food is some of my favorite! Olive Garden Zuppa Toscana -- YUM!

J made "Cake Pops" for the girlies' birthday parties. I'm glad there was basically enough for their party at school, and no extra. Cake on their birthday, cake for their party this weekend (plus ice cream), going to the circus this weekend also...

I quit smoking! That was no walk in the park, but I did it. Why is it so hard to control what I eat?!?!?

Double Coupon Monday? Nope, just two posts.

2011-03-21T10:33:00.000-05:00

*completely random crap edition*

I've been annoying everyone all last week over this contest called Whip It 180. Unfortunately, I was not one of the four finalists. My congratulations to the winners & best of luck to you all.

A huge thank you to all who voted for me. I appreciate all of your support. I had a pity-party on Saturday because of the results. I so desperately wanted to win. My wife was very supportive of me, and continues to be. We're in this journey together! I had been praying all last week about this contest, and my prayer was that if I didn't win, it was obviously because someone else needed it more than I did. It still stung when I didn't get it.

On to brighter things, though. The girlies are home from Grandma's. That was quite a week for them. It was difficult for all of us to adjust back to a 'normal' weekend. I suspect it will be tough this week too. Plus, it's their birthday this week. Then, this weekend, we're having their birthday party - going to the circus!! That should be very fun.

Last night, J made a pasta dish with Orzo, sauteed button mushrooms, onions, and chicken. It reminded me of a risotto, but with pasta instead of rice. And it was AWESOME! I have some for lunch today, yum! She has such a knack for throwing things together that are tasty. I'm able to cook, but I'm more of a recipe guy. Never could get the hang of 'off the cuff' cooking.

Weekends kick my...posterior. I don't like the idea of a 'cheat day'. It makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I would rather have a 'day off' or 'planned day' - I don't know. I only know that I might start on Saturday good and strong, I'll end up overeating at SOME point. Boredom sets in sometimes, or we'll be watching a movie, playing a game or whatever and I'll get a craving. Couple that with not going to the gym at all on Saturday or Sunday...and I feel like crap. This next weekend will be a test of my strength - birthday party. And J makes some of the most awesome cakes (looking & tasting).

I did have my first Chobani on Saturday morning. Black Cherry! It was good. I think I had tried Greek style yogurt one other time, and didn't really care for it. This was different, though. Big pieces of fruit and good flavor. The price is the only thing that will keep me from having it all the time. I don't know if eating the "light" style of yogurt is better for me, or if I should go with the "regular". It's a toss-up between artificial sweetener/calories. I don't really subscribe to the notion of artificial sweeteners giving you cancer, or making a 3rd arm grow out of your forehead, making hair grow on your palms, going blind, dry mouth, night sweats, amnesia, leakage, uncontrollable laughter/shakes/dancing...whatever. That being said, I wouldn't want to consume a tanker truck full of it.

So, how was YOUR weekend??

Friend Makin' Monday!

2011-03-21T06:52:00.001-05:00

It's a Friend Makin' Monday....TO THE EXTREME!!

Well, not really. But it sounds funny. Kenz over at All the Weigh hosts this, and I sent some questions last week. Why you ask? Well, it might have to do with the fact that I don't have a favorite brand of makeup. My wife does, but I don't think that counts. (Unless you consider the times I borrow her makeup when I go out...KIDDING!!)

So, the questions this week are a bit more -- non-female oriented. From Kenz's blog:

"If you've taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you're new, please take a moment to answer this week's question on your own blog then add a link at the bottom of this post so we can all see your post. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts."

The original clip art for FMM was a bit too girly. So, I added my manly touch to it.

And, without further ado - here are the questions, with my answers:

FMM: Giving the Boys A Chance
1. Who is your pick for the Final Four?
Duke/Wisconsin/Kansas/North Carolina -- It'll come down to North Carolina and Wisconsin with the Tar Heels taking it all!

2. What is your favorite workout/fitness activity?
I don't have one yet. I've been working hard on the elliptical, and I used to LOVE to bicycle. I want to get back into cycling. But, I want to start running, too. Right now, it seems like anything that gets me to move and sweat is great!

3. Do you have a favorite healthy snack? Something that REALLY hits the spot?
I would have to say yogurt is a favorite right now of mine. And fruit. I should start eating more raw veggies as snacks though. My wife makes the most AWESOME sour cream dip. It's perfect for dipping, and it's (mostly) low-cal when we use the low fat sour cream.

4. What is your dream car?
I don't have anything specific. But, if I had to choose? MINI Cooper S Countryman - Chili Red with white bonnet strips, Union Jack on the roof. Sunroof, H/K sound system, Nav, Premium & Cold Weather packages. NOT that I have anything specific in mind. You can buy me one here: MINIusa

5. Have you set any goals for yourself this month? What are they?
This month, my goal was to lose 10 pounds. That's kind of my goal - to lose 10 pounds at a time. I've shattered my personal bests on the elliptical this month. I'm now up to 3 miles in less than 25 minutes (at Level One). My other goal is to earn my first #7daychip!

Stay tuned for another post from me. I've got more news...

Friday - TGIF (I think)

2011-03-18T07:41:00.000-05:00

I was going to post something about today being a big day. I'll know sometime today if I have placed in the top 4 for the Whip It 180 fitness challenge. But, I've decided NOT to blog about it.

What do you do when you actually make it to the gym, and you start to work out but you're just not into it?

I went to workout yesterday afternoon. J took the day off to do "whatever she wanted", so she had gone up earlier. I got on the elliptical, and pushed through about 13 minutes. My left foot started hurting, and I just wasn't feeling up to it. My foot pain continued, so I quit the elliptical & hit the stationary bike. I probably did 10 minutes on that - but I was just feeling...."meh". (See picture below for the definition of "meh".)

Not really me. I'm much bigger, and considerably less cute.

I went into the weight room, and did some sets - probably 10 minutes worth. I finally said screw it, and came home. My Twitter friends all told me that I did good. This morning, I get up, and have no desire to do any work today. I've worked out everyday this week, and I've been trying to eat better. I've stayed within my calorie budget, too.

I went to the clinic to weigh myself. I was disappointed. My new weight: 347.8 lbs. So I'm up 1.6 lbs. Meh. Not sure what's going on. But I better get back on track.

Cereal...I hate you - no, I love you - no, hate...

2011-03-17T09:59:00.001-05:00

I love cereal. I'm like Seinfeld. But my relationship with breakfast cereal is love/hate. Why is it that something so tasty is so calorie dense? I mean, seriously. Sure, 1 cup of cereal with skim milk is 240 calories. Not great, but manageable. Well, manageable if 1 cup would satisfy me. Nope, I like having that big bowl of cereal. You know, that bowl you use at Thanksgiving to serve the stuffing from? Yeah, that's my cereal bowl. Half the box, gone. I bought a bunch of boxes of cereal a few weeks ago because it was on sale. 50% off! Well, that's like buying 2 boxes for the price of one! It's almost as good as half off!

So now, I have a whole bunch of cereal that I feel like I have to eat because I spent the money on. And I'm screwing up my calorie budget because if I eat 1 serving size, I'm hungry an hour later. If I eat 2 servings - well...it's probably still an hour. I don't want to have a snack, because my calories are shot for the morning.

My oatmeal I was having clocked in at 160 calories for 1 packet. Add another 45 calories for a third of a "snack" box of raisins and a healthy dash of cinnamon. I'll have a yogurt with it - so tack on 80-100 calories there. 300 calories & I'm very satisfied. If I eat cold cereal...forget about it. I'm hitting at least 500 calories. Ouch.

So, what do you do for breakfast? I'd love some ideas so I can get some good nutrition and satisfying breakfasts!

The Whip It 180 is almost done. Have you voted today? Please vote for me!

Humble Blessings

2011-03-16T10:13:00.000-05:00

Not only do I have the most awesome wife - I have really great friends whom I have never met! I am truly humbled by the amount of support and help I've received over the past few weeks. Especially over the last 48 hours.

If you read my blog or tweets, you know that I'm in a contest called Whip It 180. I am really hoping I win, and people who I follow on Twitter and my blog have been re-tweeting and posting on Facebook and Colleen over at Goodbye, Fat Girl! has posted a contest that if you vote for me, post it on your blog and link back to her blog, you get entered to win Shakeology! Now, how awesome is she?? Colleen, I don't know how to thank you - but I truly feel blessed having friends like you.

My wife decided to do the same thing. She's a paper-crafter & LOVES her Cricut. She posted a contest - same kind of rules - and if you win, you get a new Cricut cartridge!

I have been blessed beyond my imagination. Friends & coworkers, re-posting on their Facebook pages - sending emails out to people I don't even know, it really is humbling to know that SO many people are out there that believe in me! When I win this, I will prove to EVERYONE that I am capable of winning this fight over my weight. And hopefully I will inspire some people too. My thought is that if I can do this - so can you; because I'm the LAST person I would have thought that could do it.

I was challenged the other day to do 3 miles on the elliptical. There were no other conditions, other than 3 miles. I told myself I wouldn't go below 50 rpm, and I actually stayed right around 60 most of the time. I was on level 1 - but I did it! No picture - it didn't happen? No problem. I went on to do another 25 minutes at level 8 on the stationary bike. I was also under budget for calories yesterday, which felt awesome.

I have a couple questions for you today. How long do you normally work out for? Do you take an intentional rest day from working out?

Monday Musings

2011-03-15T08:28:00.002-05:00

The girlies are on spring break this week. It has become an annual tradition that they spend spring break with my wife's mom. They love it, we love it, Grandma loves it. My wife took the girls down yesterday. Well, yesterday evening, we were at home trying to decide what to eat. Pizza, nope; chicken, maybe; salads, none left...etc. So, this goes on for several minutes, while J and I are getting hungrier. We broke the cardinal rule of grocery shopping - DON'T GO WHEN YOU'RE HUNGRY! Well, let's run down our list of what we bought:
Bananas
Salad Mixes
Pork Roast
Beef Ribs
Tuna (or swordfish) Fillets (I don't remember which)
AKOFICR Fillets (Another Kind of Fish I Can't Remember)
Oatmeal
Bread
Cheese
Milk

So, we did REALLY good for being hungry. We did eat Mongolian Beef & Sesame Chicken for supper from the deli. It was very tasty, but probably way over calories. I'm excited for the fish, as I've never had that kind before. We've eaten Tilapia, Salmon, Cod and canned tuna - but never ventured far from those choices. I surprised myself (and probably Julie, too) when I said I'd like to try swordfish.

Beef ribs are a favorite in our house, so I'm looking forward to those. It's getting warm enough now that we can break out the grill, too!

I did 22 minutes on the elliptical - 15 of which were on level 2. Julie kicked some serious butt on the elliptical too. I admit, I don't remember how long she went, but I remember most of it was on level 2. LOVE IT! We had a nice conversation yesterday about clothing - so that was different!

I've been challenged on Twitter by FatGirlvsWorld to do 3 miles on the elliptical. So, I simply have one thing to say:

Have you voted today? Please vote for me for the Whip It 180 challenge. And, if you're willing - tweet this and Facebook this too. And - if you're really willing? Can you post a little tiny mention on your blog?

Thanks!!
Josh

Struggles

2011-03-14T10:02:00.001-05:00

So, I like to read. Nay, I LOVE to read. I read a lot. I love reading magazines. If I could have a subscription to any magazines I wanted, I'd probably get one a day! Magazines are like little presents in the mail!

Why am I telling you this? Well, I've been reading lots of blogs lately. And it's really cool that other people put their struggles out there. And, some of you? Wow! Talk about personal! Some of you aren't afraid of putting EVERYTHING out there. Me? I would say I hold some things a bit closer to my (oversized) vest. But, I want to pass along something really personal.

I have Clinical Depression. I know now that I've had it for a very long time. I've missed out on several opportunities in my life due to my depression. I have tried several medications, finally finding two that work well for me. It is the combination of the medication AND therapy that help me deal with this. The medication takes the 'edge' off. It doesn't magically fix everything. It doesn't make me see unicorns that are eating rainbows and pooping butterflies.

Talking all day long isn't going to make everything all better, either. Especially if you don't have someone who is willing to listen to you, and willing to coax (or force) things out into the open that you might not want to talk about. What I've learned is this (stick with me, because it might sound strange):

Move. That's right. When you are depressed, even the simple act of moving can be overwhelming. I'm not talking about getting up and doing something (anything) that you would normally do. Just...move. Get out of bed, go take a shower. Go outside for 5 minutes. You see, when I have a depressive episode, I get trapped in my mind. I start playing these loops in my head-basically my mind telling me things like "You don't deserve these good things." or "Things would be better off without you." - I could go on...But here's the trick. If I acknowledge these thoughts and then move, I (slowly) start to feel better.
Simple acceptance of having those thoughts can be a deciding victory! Depression is a strange beast. It affects everyone differently. And it not only hits those who have it, but others that are around. My wife and kids have to deal with it, too. I look at depression as a war. It's a war that rages in my own mind. But with the right tools and the right support - it's a war that I am able to overcome.

Fitness and exercise can have the same affect. You know that eating that king size Snickers isn't the best choice. You know you can do ONE more minute on the treadmill. Even if you're just starting out, all you have to do is move. Stand up when you watch TV. During those commercials, walk to the bedroom and back. Park farther away at work. Move that plate away from you when you've eaten half of your regular portion. I'm JUST as guilty of not doing any of these things too. And why? Because I'm lazy. No excuses, no other BS. I am lazy. It is was easier to sit my fat ass on the couch and eat that oversized bowl of ice cream while watching sitcoms. It was easier to say I was tired and couldn't play with my daughters outside then actually moving and getting some exercise.

NOT ANYMORE!

Something that my mom said last night to me really stuck with me. She told me that I sounded happier. I pondered that for a while. "Sounded happier" -- Hmm...well maybe I sound happier because I am happier! My wife and I are making positive changes in our lives. We're moving, smiling, having fun, and supporting each other.

Change doesn't happen overnight. But it also doesn't happen unless you want it to. It's not going to suddenly appear because you wish it. You have to move. So...what are YOU waiting for?

If you haven't voted today, please do so? You can vote once per day - once per computer. It would be everything to me!! Thank you!

http://www.whipit180.com/semi_finalist/joshua-kraling/

PLEASE - PLEASE VOTE!!

2011-03-13T10:42:00.000-05:00

Hello All!

I apologize if you receive this email more than once. I am in a contest for a fitness challenge called Whip It 180 http://www.whipit180.com/ . It’s sponsored by Wellmark. I have the opportunity to win a really nice prize package, including: ASICS Workout Clothing package and an Exercise Kit including

* Exercise Bands

* Exercise Body Ball

* Medicine Ball

* Jump Rope

* Workout Mat

* Lifestyle Management Program

* BodyBugg® Armband

* Wellmark Food Journal

* Personal Training by Rebecca Meyer, At-Home Winner from “The Biggest Loser”

The voting is simple. The 4 people with the most votes, wins! (They call it a challenge, but it’s basically a contest). Go here:

http://www.whipit180.com/semi_finalist/joshua-kraling/

And click on “Vote”.

It's a daily voting "thing", so vote every day. If you have multiple computers, use 'em! Every day! If you would be willing to repost this on your blog/Facebook/Twitter/Email, that would be so FANTASTIC too!!!

Some history about myself over the past couple of months. Julie and I have started making some fantastic changes in our lives. We’ve joined the gym in town and we’re doing really good. I’m up to 20-25 minutes on the elliptical (up from 3 minutes my first time), and today I ran 5 minutes on the treadmill. We have started eating better – smaller portion sizes, healthier choices, less ‘junk’ in the house. I weighed myself this week, and I’ve lost 8.6 pounds in the past 7 days. I’m hoping that trend continues. My goal is about 2 pounds/week, though.

I’m very excited about this, and when I win this fitness challenge - at the end of 5 weeks, I get to run the Grand Blue Mile on April 26^th. http://www.grandbluemile.com/

I won’t know anything until Friday, March 18^th at the very earliest. This will be a HUGE motivator for not only me, but for Julie and the girls, too.

Please vote for me, and please forward this to anyone you know that would also vote for me. Here are the rules from the Whip It 180 site:

The Winner in each category will be the person(s) whose Essay receives the greatest number of valid votes from the public from March 13 to March 19, and who satisfies all of the Official Rules. Anyone can vote; however, only one vote per E-mail address per day (midnight to midnight) is allowed. The entry with the most on-line votes wins. In the event of a tie, the sponsors will choose the winner.

Also, since it’s a ‘daily voting’ kind of thing, I might be sending more emails out to you. Again, I apologize if you get this more than once.

I’ll be posting my progress on my blog: http://youhaveablog.blogspot.com/

Thank you, thank you!!

Holy Sh...Cow.

2011-03-11T08:26:00.000-06:00

Weighed myself yesterday afternoon. Do you want to know what the scale showed? 346.2 pounds!! That's a loss, folks. I dropped 8.6 pounds since last week.

WOW! If that doesn't get a guy motivated, I don't know WHAT will! I hit the gym yesterday afternoon also. I wanted to do some weights, but it was really busy in the weight room. So, I jumped on the elliptical and had a personal best of 25 minutes. The last 5 minutes were very hard. I pushed through and made it. I was going to get on the treadmill also, but they were full. A friend lent me a DVD with yoga on it, I think I might do that today to kind of mix things up. It would probably feel good, too!

I had to have my picture taken for this contest I entered. We got to the studio, and I kind of felt like a celebrity! They were asking questions, and very attentive to my questions. The photographer was really good. I don't think I was in front of the camera for more that 3 or 4 minutes & we were done!

Since we were out of the house, we went to Applebee's for supper. My wife and I had the 2 for $20 deal. I ate 2 cheese sticks, then when my entree arrived, I boxed 1/2 of it right away. I was full at the end of the meal, and I only ate half of the portion I was served. The meal was labeled at 760 calories, so I logged it as 400 for last night's meal. I'll log 400 for today also - just so I know I've covered my bases, and not underestimated it.

I felt so good yesterday. I really feel motivated to make these positive changes in my life - and want to help as many people as I can with my story.

Thanks for continuing to read my blog and supporting me!

A call for help

2011-03-10T07:29:00.000-06:00

I have signed up for an online contest and I have been chosen as a semi-finalist. Starting on this Sunday, March 13 for 7 days, there will be on-line voting.

My question to this wonderful community of people is this: Will you vote for me? It's daily on-line voting -
1 vote/day/email address.

The details are this; the contest is for a fitness package and at-home training. At the end of 5 weeks, I will run a 'race' in downtown Des Moines. I currently weigh in at 355 lbs, which is at least 150 lbs overweight. My wife and I have started making lifestyle changes, and I'm monitoring every calorie I take in and also my exercise. I'm up to 21 minutes on the elliptical (from 3 minutes one month ago). I'm starting to do weight-training and running on the treadmill. I've been going to the gym 5-6 days a week for about 1 hour/day.

The prize package would be a huge motivator for me - I would really love to win. Would you be willing to help me? Would you be also willing to pass this along to as many people as you can for votes?

I will post more details as I get them. I'm very excited for this opportunity, and I'm amazed I made it this far.

Thanks!!

Sweeps Week (Not really, but I couldn't think of a catchy title)

2011-03-09T09:29:00.000-06:00

So, I told JackSh*t I would be blogging about this today. Did you know that he called me a dumbass! Can you believe the audacity of him?? I mean seriously. Calling someone you don't even know a dumbass? Ok, sure - I've eaten my weight in Corn Pops. And, maybe I've put my hand in a cotton candy machine once or twice. Before I started this weight-loss/blogging journey, my idea of weight lifting was a 12oz curl. My idea of exercise was standing up while I was playing the Wii. Of course, JackSh*t calling me a dumbass MIGHT have something to do with the fact that I DID say he could call me that, but only if it made him feel better.

So, Jack? Did it make you feel better?

In other news - on to my latest discovery.
I think we all know what road is paved with good intentions. I had every intention of going to the gym yesterday. We also had the "cable guy" showing up at some point in the afternoon. AND, I needed to get my kids from their after-school activity. So, when I see the cable guy outside of my house at 3, my thought is "Sweet, he can start early...be done quickly, and I'll get to the gym with plenty of time to get my kids!". Yeah, except, he didn't LEAVE my house until 3:50. I need to pick my kids up at 4:15. So, it's 4:30 when I get home with the kids. Crap. So much for treadmill work. Now, what I should have done was use my fancy-schmancy Biggest Loser DVD and let that kick my *dumbass*. But, I didn't. Instead, I ate pizza and tater tots - and had 1 slice too many of pizza. I'm pretty sure I didn't go over my calorie budget.

Wow, I guess I was a dumbass yesterday, huh? No exercise + too much supper. BAD!

How do you track your calories in/out? Software, website, WW, iPhone, notebook, calculator, little stones? I wonder if my calorie budget is okay where it's at. According to Lose It - I need to keep my calories under 2,700/day right now. Is that high?

I have a new page up top. My fitness goals are listed. I also want to put in rewards. Any suggestions on good rewards? I figured a good reward for losing 10 lbs wouldn't be an entire cheesecake. Even if it was one of those really tiny ones.

So, if you're out there Jack, you were right.

OH! One more thing. Please send prayers + positive thinking + good karma my way today. I have a chance to make it to the semi-finals of a fitness challenge & I should know later today. I'm hoping/praying that I make it. Thanks everyone!

Fat man in some little shoes...

2011-03-08T07:46:00.000-06:00

(Apologies to the late Chris Farley for today's title)

Wanna see a picture of what happens when a big (fat) man wears cheap shoes?

Yep, the entire back half of the sole came apart. I noticed it the other day, when I walked through a puddle, and my sock got all wet. It's the only pair of 'athletic' shoes I own at the moment, so it's what I'll wear. Unless someone wants to send me a pair! I've been looking online at shoes, and I think I've decided I want to get a pair of New Balance 1226. I've read they're great for bigger runners.

Notice the indentation on the leg, just above my sock? Yep, that's edema. Awesome, isn't it. Yet another reason I want to lose weight!

Sunday I was nearly 900 calories under budget, and yesterday I was just about 100 under budget. This is according to the website Lose It. I use this site because it's simple to use, and it isn't all bogged down with features I don't need right now. I may switch over to FitDay - or use the desktop version of FitDay, but for now, this is what I like. I believe the calories are about the same as other sites, too.

I've started day 3 of my #7daychip. I feel like I'm doing well. I didn't overeat at supper yesterday, despite my desire to go for seconds. I knew I didn't need it, and after sitting at the table for a few minutes, I realized I wasn't hungry either! I didn't have anything to eat after supper either. I was craving something sweet at around 10 pm. So, I had a 4oz glass of chocolate milk. It tasted great, and it solved my craving!

One of my daughters had piano practice, so I went to the gym while she did that. I was able to do 20 minutes on the elliptical and I did some leg presses and stretching. My wife was planning on going to the gym today, but used the Biggest Loser DVD we have. She was sore afterward, but happy she was able to do some exercise.

Oh, and I still need to get a 'good' before picture taken; and I want to take my measurements too. I'm also thinking of changing up my routine - I don't want it to get 'stale'. Try something new, maybe work harder on the treadmill?

ABC's

2011-03-07T08:40:00.001-06:00

I've copied this from Colleen at Goodbye, Fat Girl - Thanks!

ABC's of ME

Age: 36
Bed size: Queen (I think).
Chore you hate: Cleaning the litter-box.
Dogs: We had a white boxer named Jackson, but we ended up finding him a happier home.
Essential start of your day: Coffee!!
Fave color: Blue? I don't know, really.
Gold or silver: Silver, I think.
Height: 5'11''
Instruments I play: None, now. High school it was clarinet. Yep, I was a band-geek.
Job title: Help Desk Technician.
Live: In Iowa
Mom’s name: Roberta
Nicknames: Josh, Schmoopee, Dad
Overnight hospital stays: Too many to list here. - No, really - I've had several.
Pet peeve: People who think they do, but really don't know what they're talking about.
Quote from a movie: "Time is an illusion. Lunchtime, doubly so."
Right or left handed: Right-handed
Siblings: 1 brother
Time you wake up: Weekdays around 4; Saturdays it depends, Sundays 6 or 6:30.
Underwear: Always
Veg you dislike: eggplant
What makes you run late: Nothing - I'm perpetually early for everything.
X-rays you have had done: Knee, eyes (yes really), Back (several times)
Yummy food you make: Potato Soup
Zoo Animal, favorite: Baboons

Weekend!

2011-03-06T16:52:00.000-06:00

Saturday my dad and brother and his girlfriend came over and we had a delicious pork roast, potatoes, carrots and onions. We also had fresh bread - it was awesome. I overate, that's for sure. My brother brought some Zevia soda. It was pretty good, actually. My wife asked me if it was the taste, or the fact I was having a delicious fizzy drink for the first time in a few days. I was going to have another after lunch, and she asked me "Are you sure you want to do that?" I sheepishly replied, "Well, no."

Got up this morning, had a healthy breakfast and made it to church. Kids went to Sunday School and the wife and I went to get a few things. I suddenly got VERY hungry, but was able to hold off buying any "bad" stuff. Thank goodness my wife was there. Just having her there kept me from going something I would regret.

I was able to get 20 minutes done on the elliptical, which was very difficult. I finished 15 minutes on the bike, and wanted to get at least 10 done on the treadmill. At about 6 minutes, I nearly tripped, and only got 7 minutes in before I stopped.

Had a cup of tea this afternoon, and am looking forward to a nice, quiet evening. Using the website loseit.com to track my calories. It's helping!

Stupid Scale

2011-03-04T15:30:00.000-06:00

Okay, it's time to regroup. First week (kind of) out of the gate. Anyone want to guess what kind of number I'm going to put up on the big board?

Anyone want to guess? Okay, look over on the right side of my blog. It says "Weight Record". The date I posted was March 1st, but it was really February 25th. So, I waited a week to weigh myself.

Stupid scale. I actually got off and back on, to make sure it was zeroed. Then, I checked my pockets, to make sure I wasn't carrying my billfold, cell phone, keys, notebook, pen, ipod, lunch, last Sunday's paper, some sand, and a gallon of goat's milk. Nope, all empty.

Kind of makes you wonder why you bother, huh? All those demons come creeping back out..."Just give up fatty...go get a 6 pack and a pizza and quit." "It's easier that way."

Oh, I guess I should tell you the weight, huh? Last Friday - 353.4 -- Today - 354.8

SERIOUSLY?!?!?

ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?!??

*sigh*

I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go fry up that pound of bacon in lard so it will be ready for my ice cream topping. Maybe Chet will make me a nice, greasy pork sandwich...served in a dirty ashtray.

stupid scale...

Jesus is my Personal Trainer

2011-03-04T07:31:00.000-06:00

I'm going to talk about faith today. So, if anyone is offended or put-off by Christianity or me being a "Jesus-Freak", it would be best to leave now.

Still here? Cool. Thanks for sticking around. I was reading another post this morning, and it occurred to me that weight loss is kind of like having faith in God. I'll explain.

When I was younger, I was very active in my church. I took part in the youth groups, taught Sunday School, got a position on a the youth board for the local synod. I really loved it. I'm not going to go into details, but I fell away from the Lord. I turned my back on Him. I became very angry and depressed. But, over time, I finally found my way back. Sure, I've sinned (we all do). But He forgives me. He has given me the tools to learn and grow. Sure - it takes work...a lot of work, sometimes. But, being a Christian and living my life for Jesus helps me be a better husband, a better father, and a better man.

It's kind of like that treadmill in your basement, or bike in your garage, huh? You know, the one you haven't used in the longest time? Yeah, it's still there...waiting for you. Or that gym membership; or set of DVDs? Having the tools doesn't automatically make you a more fit person. It's not going to make those pounds fall off. You have to put in the time and do the work! And when you do, you will see that you're a better person! But here's the catch - sometimes, we don't see the progress. We may feel it. Maybe we won't even have that. But you need to have faith that every step you take is one more toward your goal.

Now, what's interesting to me is how my faith in God and getting on that equipment is so intertwined. It gives me time to pray and to reflect on my relationship with Jesus. If you've been reading my posts - you'll see that that elliptical is my Goliath. First time on it - I did maybe 3 minutes. But, I'm getting better. Yesterday, I did 15 minutes at a pace of about 50. I was sweating the whole time. Right around the 11 minute mark, I started praying. I heard that voice telling me, "Just go one more minute, okay? - It's only 60 seconds, just keep it up!" That was my Trainer. I made it to 12 minutes. I heard that voice again, "Let's go another 60 seconds. I know you can do it, because I made you." 13 minutes. "Come on - keep it up! Those muscles were made for you to do this!" 14 minutes. "Okay, I'm going to ask you for just 1 more minute, and then we can stop." 15 minutes!!!

I tried to run on the treadmill, and got 3 minutes down at a 4 mile pace (which is running for me). I did 30 on the bike after that.

I'll leave you with a quote from Pastor Chuck Swindoll:
"The remarkable thing is, we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day."

So, here's to you - and I hope and pray that you're attitude is amazing today.

It must be a Thursday.

2011-03-03T06:32:00.000-06:00

"It must be a Thursday. I could never get the hang of Thursdays." (Anyone know what book/author this is from?)

I don't even know where to start. I got to work & decided I wanted a donut. I should have resisted the temptation and had my oatmeal (which is actually delicious). I normally have a package of oatmeal and a yogurt. But, I didn't. And now I feel guilty and kind of depressed for eating them. Can I get a do-over?

Yesterday I didn't go to the gym. I was tired, and kind of grumpy and didn't want to go. Plus, I had 1/2 of a Diet Mountain Dew. It tasted okay, but it didn't really do much for me. So, in the past 24 hours, I've felt like a total failure. Not only in this area, but I yelled at my kids, too. Basically, because they were being kids and fighting with each other. But, I'm pretty tired of it all. Then, I felt like I took out my frustration on my wife. I didn't ask her how her day went, and didn't really talk about much (completely my fault). I went to mens bible study last night - we were discussing if you consider your job a calling. Well, that got the ball rolling in my head; My job? Heh, it pays well, but most of the time I feel like a trained monkey. Well, at least I don't throw my poo (much). I don't hate my job, but it's not my dream job either. Of course, I'm not sure what my dream job would be. And, at this point, there's no use thinking about it. I've got too much on my proverbial plate right now. So basically - just a crappy day + a crappy morning.

The wife and I went on Tuesday, and we got a good workout in, so that felt good. We don't have any candy/junk in the house anymore. I'm not drinking soda (except for the diet green pee from yesterday). I haven't had a beer in the longest time, and I'm still not smoking. I know I'm doing more than what I have been. I'm exercising much more than I ever have. And, I have cut the soda from my life, so I'm not drinking those calories. But I know there are so many more things I should be doing. We should be eating better, I shouldn't be getting donuts for breakfast. Part of me wants to take this slow and not get discouraged and burn out. Those fears and doubts creep into my head. "Just leave well enough alone." "You're fine just like this." "If you're still going to eat donuts, why even bother trying?" I posted a comment on another blog about "Tomorrow being a new day," It's tough looking for tomorrow at 6am today. Plus, I don't really want to check my weight tomorrow, for fear it hasn't moved - or worse. But, I'll wonder what it is if I don't.

Things I'm looking forward to

2011-03-02T05:48:00.001-06:00

It will be a while, but here are some things I look forward to when I'm fit.

Being able to play with my kids outside and not quit after 5 minutes.
Running - Running a 5K or a 10K...maybe more??
Bicycling - Riding my bike without thinking it's going to break under me.
Shirts that don't say 4XL or 3XL or 2XL.
Jeans & Pants that aren't in the 40's.
Being able to go to the beach and letting other people get tanned too.

Okay, that one is a joke...(kind of).

Being a fit, hot husband for my wife.
Stairs. Yes, stairs. Climbing stairs without being winded.
Doing simple tasks without sweating almost immediately.
Looking down and being able to see my....feet. (What did you think I was going to say?)
Being able to tell people, "If I can do it, so can you!"

In other news - today marks 7 weeks of being a non-smoker. I won't ever go back!

Some other random thoughts that are bouncing around my head today...

"I sooo need a decent pair of shoes."
"What the crap?? Why did they vote Arthur off the ranch on The Biggest Loser?" -- That's almost enough for me to quit watching. But WAY TO GO Arthur for your at home loss so far!!
"I need to change up what I'm doing at the gym. Maybe push longer on the elliptical and do some treadmill?"
"I wonder how much I weigh today? Have I lost anything?"

Food and Failings

2011-03-01T08:37:00.001-06:00

I love food. I always have. Simple things like whole wheat bread with real butter make me happy. Oh, but let's not stop there. Bacon - it's like meat candy! I could go on all day about sweets and treats. Good coffee with half & half? Sign me up! It's a love-hate thing, that's for sure. I love food, but I hate eating. Or rather, I hate the way I feel after I eat.

I tried Atkins a few years ago. I made it one day. I was literally in tears at the end of the day. I honestly think I was grieving for the foods that I had lost. My original thought was, "Hey, I quit smoking...I can do this!!". How wrong was I. That one day set me up to fail for a long time. I mean, if I can't even go one day doing this...what chance do I have? Really??

My wife and I made a decision back in 2007 to get fit, eat healthy, and change our lifestyle. That went pretty good, until I slipped on some ice and landed on my knee. I was laid up for almost a month. I let that one accident set me back again. What's worse, I let my wife down. Then, last year - she joins the gym. Did I join too? Or encourage her? Nope. I stood by watching - when she was trying her hardest to become healthy, while I drank my Pepsi Throwback and ate fast food and junk food.

I get home from work yesterday and Julie says, "Why don't you go to the gym? I'll get the girls from the bus stop today." Have I mentioned how amazing my wife is? I did 10 minutes on the elliptical at 55-60 rpm; and then did 30 on the stationary bike. My rpm varied between 70-110, depending on the resistance. My heart rate was between 125-150 for the whole workout. It was a good day!

My belt has been kind of broken for about a month. I've just been too cheap to buy a new one. I mentioned to Julie that my jeans and belt aren't fitting right. I figured it's this stupid belt I have. She looked at me and said, "I don't think it's the belt, honey." Wait, what? No...my waist hasn't shrunk yet, has it?

Julie made chicken breasts in the crockpot, mashed potatoes and cauliflower, and green beans. It was savory and wonderful. And I get to eat it for lunch today, too!

I'll need to measure my body and take a "before" picture to share with everyone. I know that it's said you should talk to your doctor before starting an exercise regimen. How many of you have actually done that??

Honesty

2011-02-28T12:23:00.000-06:00

"The truth will set you free"
"Honesty is the best policy"
"Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."

In the spirit of being honest, here are some things I've never told anyone.

I've purchased 2 "Value" meals at a fast food restaurant. As a fellow blogger put it: "because if you have 2 drinks they certainly know you are taking the 2nd meal back to a co-worker or friend, because it would be ridiculous to think that you were going to eat all of it yourself." Uh, done it...

I've also purchased 2 sandwiches because I didn't like any of the sides at a fast food place.
Or hidden junk food so I wouldn't have to share it.
How about this? Eating a meal because I was hungry, but eating again with family or friends.
I put this one on my "About Me" page. I've made an entire pan of treats and eaten them all, washed all the dishes and put everything away, just so no one would know I did it.
Purchased the big steak instead of the small steak because, hey...it's only $2.00 more.
Wanting to be alone so I can binge on food without anyone knowing.
Going to lunch alone so other people wouldn't see how much I ate.

Ouch.
Thanks to Fatty Made a Funny for the inspiration to do this.

Monday, Monday....So Good To Me

2011-02-28T10:58:00.000-06:00

I have to post this here, it's been a huge inspiration the past week. It's from my blogging friend, Jack Sh*t. It's called Reversing It. By the way Jack, that $50 that I owed you is in the mail.

I did find a new weight loss book! It's the simplest, shortest book I've ever found. The title is "Eat Less & Move More". The first chapter is titled "Eat Less" and the second is titled "Move More". I don't want to give any secrets away in the book, though.

I took a long nap on Sunday. And, I felt kind of crappy for doing it. I woke up feeling like a truck hit me. It's not like I did much yesterday...geez!

When I was at the gym yesterday, there was a woman that came in as I was on the bike. She got ready, got on an elliptical, went for about 30 seconds, got off, walked over to the magazine rack, grabbed a magazine, walked back, got back on, starting moving on the elliptical again. She couldn't keep a steady pace what with all the page flipping and balancing the magazine. I hate to sound like Judgey McJudgerson, but if you're able to read while exercising, you're not putting in enough effort.

Today is Monday. I'll be able to get about 30 minutes in at the gym.

List of things to do:

~~Get an accurate weight at the doctor's office~~. 353.4 lbs - That's with clothes & shoes on. I figured they wouldn't appreciate it if I were to strip down right there.
~~Measure my resting heart rate~~. Right around 85.
~~Start logging my food intake and my exercise~~. Using FitDay. I have the desktop version, it looks pretty good.

So, cutting the soda and junk food out of my life. I think I want to make a list of goals with rewards. Does anyone do that? Non food rewards, please. Any suggestions on rewards other people have done?

Also, does anyone use Truvia? How's the taste? I tried it in my coffee and I couldn't quite make it work for me. That was a year ago, so maybe I need to give it another try. I love my coffee and tea, but I like sugar in them. But, if I can switch to Truvia, bye bye sugar!

Oh Weekend - You make me....something...

2011-02-27T14:13:00.000-06:00

We got up on Saturday, not having much of a plan. I kind of wanted to go to a craft store (yes, I know). I am looking for a box to store my Carcassonne tiles in. Carcassonne. "Car-ca-sonn" - It's a board game. Yes, I like playing board games. Anyway, we went to a couple of stores, and my wife and kids found things, but my search was mostly a bust.

We needed to get some groceries, but you're not supposed to go to the grocery store hungry. So, we went to a fast food place hungry instead. My soda ban is still in effect. I had a glass of unsweetened ice tea; weak, unsweetened ice tea. The Pepsi button was calling me, though. So was the Mountain Dew button. WILLPOWER wins!! Yay, Me!

I lost out on the willpower battle a little later. We told the girls they could get a Shamrock Shake from a certain chain of fast food places that shall remain nameless, except that they sell Shamrock Shakes and of McItems. The call of a chocolate shake was too much. My wife got a Mocha coffee (which is what I should have ordered). Next time, I'll be stronger.

I got up early today and went to get the paper from the convenience store. I bought dounts for the family, too. :( Not a good idea, Josh!! But, they were good. Weekends are going to be tough for me. I know I haven't committed fully to a new lifestyle. I think the thing that needs to happen is to come up with a meal plan, or some new menu ideas, or something like that. We didn't buy any junk yesterday at the grocery store, despite the girls trying to convince us that we needed M&M's. We did find a great deal on yogurt, though. 8 containers for $1.00. They're set to expire on March 5. SO WHAT?!

Went to church, then came home and changed to go to the gym. I did 13 minutes on the elliptical (YAY!), and 30 on the bike. I got on the treadmill, but only did about 3 minutes and my stomach was telling me it was hungry. So, I got off the treadmill and walked about 2 laps - then my stomach won out. I came home and had lunch. I'll be doing some cleaning around the house later if anyone is interested. I'll make sure to wear my frilly apron...

Some changes are likely coming to this blog. Nothing huge; just some design changes and I'll be adding some things. Any suggestions?

Friday Musings

2011-02-25T13:01:00.000-06:00

Something I didn't realize until just now. I didn't feel as tired yesterday afternoon. Usually, I'm ready for a nap as soon as I get home! I wasn't as sleepy, and I felt okay.

I have been waking up earlier this past week, but I'm hoping I can change that. That will help a lot, too! I set my alarm way too early. It's a psychological thing that I need to change. Especially if it means I get to snuggle with my schmoopee.

I've been wondering about running. I see so many people who talk about running. I used to be a cyclist, and I want to get back into it. But there has always been something kind of alluring about running. Anyone know why??? No, seriously....I'd like to know why, because I don't!

Speaking of running, I used to do tech support for a company that sold a fitness system for runners. It tracked their mileage, heart rate, cadence...I knew how to use it. I even owned the top of the line system. Barely ever used it. I wish I still had it, actually.

So, we HAD tickets to the Blue Ribbon Bacon Festival for tomorrow. We decided to sell them. It is much better that I don't go there and eat 14.6831 pounds of bacon, and drink a small pond's worth of crappy beer. I can only imagine that I probably would have consumed...oh, I don't know...685,000 calories tomorrow? That might be a bit on the low side, though. And, my gall bladder thanks me for not going, even with it not being inside my body anymore. Still...I'm going to miss the chocolate covered bacon.

I think I'm going to go to the doctor's office and see if I can get weighed. Then, I'll have a starting point.

I was explaining to my parents how the Wii Balance Board works a few months ago. It was finished syncing with the Wii, and it told me to 'Step On'. And, while I think it's kind of funny when you hear "Ohh!" as your stepping onto it, it's not as funny when you step on it and a warning appears on the screen. It was politely telling me that I was over the weight limit for the board. What it felt like was

"OH DEAR GOD!!! PLEASE MOVE BEFORE YOU BREAK ME! THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE!!! WHY????"

I think my first mid goal is to be able to use the balance board again. Have a great weekend everyone.

10 Cardio?!? Yeah, RIGHT....

2011-02-24T20:40:00.000-06:00

So, I couldn't make it to the gym today. I put "The Biggest Loser 30 Day Jump Start" in the DVD player. They have 10 minute workouts. I did the Cardio Level 1. Who knew 10 minutes could take so long! I was dripping sweat. I couldn't do all the exercises they were showing...I had to do the 'easy' way. But, that's okay, right? At least I'm moving!

I feel great for moving and getting some exercise in. But, I feel like sh*t for how LITTLE I can actually do. It is SO HARD. The first time I got on the elliptical, I thought "No problem!". Heh. I did about 2 minutes. 10 minute cardio? I could hardly breathe!! But I'm moving!! As long as I'm moving.

I almost bought a Mountain Dew today. I didn't though.

List of things to do:

Get an accurate weight at the doctor's office.
Measure my resting heart rate.
Start logging my food intake and my exercise.
Figure out my BMR/RMR? Not sure which one?

I have to put this up....because it's too funny. It's from a fellow weight loser. Jack Sh*t
Favorite Tweets:
"Having a handful of almonds as a snack, but picking 'em out of the Almond Joy bars is a real b*tch."

Anyway, it's time to turn it off...night all.

Yes...I'm posting twice...again...okay?

2011-02-24T06:13:00.000-06:00

You can see my post below this one for my PR story.

So - am I taking this weight loss journey seriously? I had someone tell me that just taking that first step, no matter how small, is important. So, that's what I've done. I'm 6 weeks into not smoking. I'm feeling pretty good about it. But I need to stay vigilant. I've been to the gym off & on for 3 or 4 weeks. I'm not going as much as I want to - and need to. We haven't changed our eating or nutrition habits much, either. I've quit soda (or pop - depending on your locale). I haven't had any of that ~~sugary goodness~~ evil in a can in 4 days. I don't like the taste of diet, so I won't even try it. I've read a few blogs of people who are doing the SAME thing I am right now. And, I've read some great success stories. I want that. I want to be that success story. I am going to say that I'm really motivated, and I'm ready. I think it's time to dive in - rather than dip my toes.

What is really awesome, is I have THREE followers. And I have some comments from yesterday's post! Including one from someone that I don't know - she said she liked the post! My wife saw it and said "Who is this?" "Uh, I don't know..." But it was really cool. I have a friend from high school that told me I can email her if I have some questions about fitness. Very Cool. The support that I'm receiving is really awesome!

I entered a contest to win a fitness package with a whole bunch of stuff. Workout clothes, medicine ball, resistance bands, workout mat; a BodyBugg, and one-on-one training with Rebecca Meyer. How neat would that be? Wow...I just used the word "neat". Isn't that just swell?

Anyone use a BodyBugg? Is it effective?

Okay, it's time for this tubby to go do something...

PR Yesterday (Personal Record)

2011-02-24T05:36:00.000-06:00

Yep, that's right. I'm going to tell you alllll about my personal record at the gym. I went earlier in the afternoon, and there were only about 3 other people there. So, I got on a treadmill for the first time in years. I did about 8 minutes total between walking (around 3 mph) and running (maybe 4 or 4.5, I think). I got on the stationary bike and did 30 minutes, trying to keep the RPM at around 80.

So, once I was off the bike, I decided to try the elliptical again. I was on that thing for 10 minutes! That is my personal best!! I know I should celebrate the small victories, right? As I was getting off of the elliptical, the youth pastor at my church walked in. The dude is really in shape. I mean...really-really. But, he was really proud of me! Made me feel like a million bucks!!

Told my wife when she got home, she was so proud! It was really cool.

And, this morning...I don't hurt like I did when I started this a few weeks ago.

“I'm fat, but I'm thin inside... there's a thin man inside every fat man.”

2011-02-23T09:13:00.001-06:00

So, let's talk a little about me, shall we? I mean, that's what a blog is all about. HEY WORLD...LOOK AT ME! Narcissism at its finest? This should be a disturbing post, then...

I am fat. I'm not just fat, I'm obese. I'm not just obese, I'm morbidly obese. My BMI is over 50. I can only guess at my weight right now. Yea. I'm like Fat Bastard (from the Austin Powers films), only bigger. Here are some more interesting points about me:

2004 - I had my gall bladder removed because of gallstones.
I've had several issues with my knees; including a surgery in 2007.
I have obstructive sleep apnea and have to use a CPAP.
I likely have high blood pressure, and I'm likely pre-diabetic.
Stroke & heart disease run in my family.
The scale at home doesn't go high enough for me to know my weight. Nor does the scale at my friend's office who is a physical therapist.
I have pitting edema in my legs & feet.
I'm out of breath from climbing a flight of stairs, or bending over to tie my shoes.
I can't find shirts that I can tuck in anymore.
I'm on my 3rd chair at work because I keep breaking them.
I'm tired - ALL the time.

Let's look at that last point, okay? When I say I'm tired all the time, that means ALL the time. Last Saturday, we woke up at around 8am. By 11, I could have taken a nap. At 2:30, I DID take a nap. I could have gone to bed at 8:30 that night.

I saw a picture of me back in 2009 when we were on vacation. I was sitting on a shoreline with one of my daughters, and my back was to the camera. I was amazed at how huge I looked. Maybe amazed isn't the right word. I think disgusted is more accurate. Did I do anything about it then? Of course not. I've often thought "Well, I might as well accept who I am," and "I'm too weak to change, so why bother trying?".

In high school, I rode my bicycle a lot. I loved cycling. Even in my first few months of college, I rode as much as I could. I never gained that freshman 15; in fact, I lost weight! Not much, but a few pounds. I have no story to tell except that I consistently gained weight after that. I kept saying I would do something about it, but never did. Meanwhile, I kept buying bigger jeans, and bigger shirts.

About two months ago, I was reading an article on "Defining Your Core Values". So, I did that. Then, I read another article about creating your bucket list. I put a lot of thought into it, but one thing that was on there almost instantly was to lose weight and maintain a healthy weight. When I told my wife about it, she asked if I wanted to join the gym in town. Without hesitation, I said yes.

So, now...I walk. I ride a stationary bike. I try to use the elliptical (but I can only get about 5 minutes on that before I feel like I have to quit). I try to run, but I can only get about 1 or 2 laps in before I'm very out of breath. I've stopped drinking soda, instead drinking water and the flavored drink packets. I've considered joining Weight Watchers. I know I should start to keep a food log, but I haven't taken that step yet. The past two days, I haven't had anything to eat after 7 pm. I'm also 6 weeks cigarette free.

So, why am I putting all of this out for the world to see? For the same reason that I told my bible study group that I was quitting smoking. It keeps me accountable. And when I'm successful with this journey, perhaps someone else can get the motivation to do what I did.

My motivation? Other than my family and my friends? I started reading Ben Does Life after watching his video on YouTube.

I was watching it last night, thinking to myself, "I want to be THAT guy". And, I thought, "Hey, he kind of reminds me of me. So, if he can do it...maybe I can too."

The title is a quote from George Orwell.

Roller Derby Weekend!

2011-02-21T07:47:00.000-06:00

So the fam went to a roller derby match this weekend. My wife scored tickets through Groupon for cheap, and the kiddos were able to get in free. The doors opened at 5 on Saturday. We showed up at ten minutes till, and the line was nearly a block long. We got in, and found some seats pretty close to the action. The first bout was the newly formed men's roller derby team. Underwhelmed comes to mind. There were some really super skaters out there, but for the most part, it was kind of boring. The women didn't start until nearly 8 pm. When they came out, it was a whole different atmosphere. The wife thought that one reason was the announcers were really getting into the game. During the men's bout, it was pretty bland. The women have some really awesome athletes on their team. But, a big problem was the amount of official time-outs that were called. It was after 9PM when half-time was called. We decided to call it a night, while we were all still having fun, and not too tired that we would get crabby. I learned a lot about roller derby, and hopefully we can go back and see another match.

By the time we got home and got the kids to bed, we were both pretty tired, too. We went to bed, and woke up around 7, asking each other if we were going to go to church. It was a gloomy morning, and everyone was still tired from the night before. It was a pretty dull Sunday. The kids watched a couple movies. Some laundry was done, and dishes too. Mrs. made a really superb chicken & noodles dish for supper.

Monday -- back to the grind. The kids are starting an after-school program for a few weeks; that will be great for me. I'll be able to go to the gym before I go get them from school! WOOT! I still don't know my current weight-but I'm sure it hasn't dropped any since I've started exercising. Soon, though.

Confessions of a "Wet-Shaver" - Or "How I Found Peace In A Razor"

2011-02-16T06:32:00.001-06:00

Does anyone know what wetshaving is? Wetshaving is the general term for NOT using an electric razor to shave. Now, it can cover everything from straight razors to cartridges with 5 blades, a moisturizing strip, rubber fins to lift the hairs, a little motor inside to vibrate the skin...should I go on?

What I'm referring to is traditional wetshaving. I've recently discovered the joys of using a brush and shaving soap, and using a safety razor for whisker removal. Sure, it takes longer. But I have learned that I can get a clean, comfortable shave that leaves me with zero irritation.

You see, I have - or rather had - a problem. I couldn't shave everyday. I had to skip a day because it was so painful. I tried the 2 blade, 3 blade, 5 blade cartridges. My wife got me an electric razor a few years ago. I tried foams and gels and creams. Anything that was sold for 'sensitive skin' was on my list. Nothing really helped.

I read an article titled "Learn How to Shave Like Your Grandpa". I had a cheap brush, and some inexpensive shaving soap was easy to find locally. I started reading about how to make a good lather, and using less pressure when shaving. The results were incredible!

I mentioned this to my mom, and she said "I still have Grandpa's razors, and his Old Spice Mug. If you want them, you can have them." WOW! So, my Grandpa's two safety razors have been passed down to me. One is a Gillette Ball End Tech from between 1945 and 1955. The other is a Gillette Black Tip SuperSpeed from about 1951. I'm kind of shocked that my mother would still have these, but I was amazed at the razor's condition. They were used, but still looked great!

My first shave with a safety razor was harrowing. I'm thinking "Sure, let's put a razor blade up to my face, with a metal instrument that hasn't been used in at least 12 years." You know, because the companies that make the new razors, they obviously know what they're doing; making these fancy new razors all the time. The first few shaves were uncomfortable. I nicked myself more than once, bled a bit & found the sting of styptic. But then, everything started coming together. I was slowing down, and using the weight of the razor to my advantage.

Here's the huge difference between shaving with an electric or a cartridge razor, and shaving with a safety razor (or a straight blade). You.Take.Your.Time. You need to. Why? To make sure you are getting a good lather with your soap and brush. Do you have a sharp blade in your razor? I found peace in a razor. I was taking my time doing something so mundane. But every thought I was having was about this process. It was all about what I was doing...right...now.

Apply pre-shave oil. Load brush with soap. Whisk soap with brush until a good lather is formed. Lather face using brush. Make first pass with razor. Lather again; make second pass. Check for missed spots. Lather spots and touch up.

You see? If you're going to do something, do it with all of your self. Don't think of these mundane tasks as "Things to do so I can get to the next task." Put your entire self into that task.

Once I realized that, I learned an important value about my faith. God doesn't want you to be a fair weather follower. He wants your entire self!

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

All circumstances! That's huge. Even when I'm shaving. When I am blessed. When I go through trials. When I am working. When I worship. When I'm able to spend time with my family. When I'm having a tough day. Give thanks in all circumstances.

Maybe I can start posting more than once every 8 months.

2011-02-14T05:56:00.003-06:00

Maybe this blogging thing isn't for me. Let me give you a quick rundown of what's been going on. My beautiful wife has discovered the joy of paper crafting. She has a Cricut + all the goodies for it. I guess she doesn't have ALL of the goodies. She and the daughters are having fun making cards and boxes and notepads and all sorts of other neat stuff.

I have NO problems with it at all! In fact, I think it's really cool. She has a hobby, and she really enjoys it. She's made some online friends, and even started a blog!

Now, SHE has a blog, and has posted several times. I made this blog TWO years ago, and have....I don't know...maybe 6 posts? I'm still trying to figure this all out. I don't know what I want to do with my blog. The few that I really enjoy reading have a lot of great stories and insights.

I could talk about my many pursuits. Music, Wetshaving, Board Games, Camping, Bucket Lists, Fatherhood, Husband-hood, Being a Christian Man.

Well, onto "Current News", shall we? I guess current is relative. I started smoking again, then quit...again. I told all the everyone in my Bible Study group. I figured that might help me to be accountable. It's been 1 month and 2 days.

I still don't have a front tooth. I had the bone graft, and we're still paying that off. Then, we'll need to have the implant...

We've started the "Debt Snowball". More info on that later.

We've also started going to the gym. It's time for this tubby to lose weight. I would have said 'get into shape', but round is a shape.

Maybe I'm posting this and only 3 people read it. If so, Hi, Hello, and Howdy.

Seasons Change

2010-05-28T10:24:00.002-05:00

There's a saying in Iowa: "There's only 2 seasons, Winter and Construction". While that is true, there is another season between the two. Garage Sale season. It must coincide with that "Spring Cleaning" thing I keep hearing about. So, I guess we're going to have a garage sale. Lots of books, DVDs, CDs, toys, furniture, games...who knows what else! It's a treasure trove of stuff we no longer want...

So it should be an interesting day tomorrow. Hopefully, there is a huge turnout and we sell everything and make a ton of money.

In other news, our dog, Jackson, has found a new home. We talked to a family that has 4 boys, and they live on 20 acres. They fell in love with Jackson, and he loves them too. We were all very sad to see him go, but it was for the best. He'll finally get the attention he deserves.

The girls are still liking softball, I still don't have a front tooth, our garden is starting to sprout little plants, and the wife and I are still not smoking.

Have a good Memorial Day weekend, everyone.

"Insert Title Here"

2010-05-15T21:34:00.004-05:00

I still haven't really figured out why I'm doing this. Maybe it's because I decided that I needed to start 'journal-ing' or keeping a diary. I wonder if people still do that...you know, keep an actual paper journal?

But, at least I can say that I haven't scared anyone off. Of course, that's only because I'm the only one reading it...

I went for a 3 mile bike ride this morning, before anyone else was awake. A whopping 3 miles, I know! I guess you have to start somewhere. I used to ride my bike all the time; but that was years ago. I loved it then, and still love it now. The kids sometimes drive me crazy when they are riding with me, but I'm sure that will change. They've only just learned this year how to ride their bikes.

Speaking of the girls, they had another softball game today. The grandparents showed up and watched. It was really great. I'm so happy for the girls. I'm just happy that they have found something that they enjoy doing.

Church tomorrow. We also need to get groceries, mow the lawn, trim the weeds; plus all the other stuff...vacuum, dishes, laundry. I think I'd like a haircut too.

Oh, and I'm still missing a front tooth.

Gardening For Beginners

2010-05-14T07:36:00.002-05:00

We have a garden in our backyard! Technically, it's a raised garden bed, but still! I'm fairly excited about it, and the kids are really excited. We didn't plant much; just things that we're sure to eat. Lettuce, cauliflower, kohlrabi, some chives, and tomatoes. Hopefully, we'll get some good produce from the little garden - and hopefully the rabbits WON'T. I wonder if we should put up some wire. I've heard that rabbits can't jump up to get to a raised garden bed.

The girls are in softball this year. They are really enjoying it, and the wife and I are also. It's been a bit chilly on Saturday mornings, and we've had a few rain-outs, but it's been really fun so far.

We had been riding our bikes quite a bit throughout April. It seems that as soon as May arrived, we've been dodging rain drops every day. Did the weather patterns for April and May get switched? I just know that when I ride, I feel better.

Still haven't been golfing this year, though!

Yes, two posts in one day - Don't get used to it...

2010-05-13T13:17:00.002-05:00

Okay, so I'm posting again. It's not as if anyone reads this, anyway. My latest adventure has been a problem tooth.

It turns out that I have (or rather, had) a front tooth that was very dead. My dentist strongly suggested I have it taken care of. The three options are: #1. A removable appliance; #2 A bridge; #3 An implant. The implant is the best course of action, as it will likely last the rest of my life. Of course, it's also the option that isn't covered by insurance. I'm a bit shocked, but it's something that we can deal with. Two days later, the tooth breaks and it needs to be extracted.

So, as my wife and I are preparing to fork over somewhere around $2,000 for the implant, I go to the oral surgeon for a consultation. He looks at my non-tooth and says that it is possible to have an implant placed in that spot, the previous infections I've had in that area have destroyed the bone. But, that's okay, because he can do a bone graft.

For those who don't know what a bone graft entails, it goes like this...Doctor takes a piece of bone from around the area of your wisdom teeth, down by the jaw. He then pins that little piece of bone into place wherever it needs to go.

Interesting side note, you can use a bovine (cow) material or cadaver material to do the bone graft as well. I think I'll stick with using my own bone.

Six months later, the bone will be all healed and ready for the implant. Low, low cost for this lovely procedure? Only $2,250. For a tooth. So, after all is said and done, we're looking at paying somewhere in the neighborhood of $5,000 for a single tooth. Dental insurance only covers the crown.

Stress? Sure. Problems with paying that kind of money for ONE tooth? Naturally. Hating the way I look right now without a front tooth? Of course.

So, what do you do? Someone at the oral surgeon said to look at this as an investment. I don't know If I can look at it that way. I'm pretty sure I could make a really nice living room setup with that kind of money. You know, nice TV...new theater seating, surround sound, HTPC setup...

Of course, I'd still look like a hockey player.

Hello World!

2010-05-13T06:17:00.003-05:00

Anyone recognize the title? Yep, I'm a geek. Or a dork, depending on who you ask.

So, this is blogging, huh? I never thought I'd have a blog; but I made one, and let it sit idle for 18 months. An empty blog doesn't get better with age, like Cheddar or wine. And, it doesn't write itself. But, I decided I needed to start this journey...

A very good friend once told me to "Write even if it's wrong." So, right or wrong, I'm starting this. I don't know what the purpose is, and I don't know where I'll end up, but it's the journey that's important, right?

So, who am I? I'm nobody, really...Just another fool on the web with a blog. I'm a husband, and a father. There are times that I'm not a very good one, but I try. With God's grace, we'll make it.

So, I work for a convenience store chain doing technical support. My wife works for the state. We have a nice little house in a nice little town, and we have twin daughters. They are finishing up 3rd grade this spring and we are all getting excited about the summer.

I've recently quit smoking. My wife has a few months on me with that, and she's doing fantastic! I'm doing okay, too. I haven't lit up, or taken a puff since I quit.

So, that's a little about me. What else do you want to know?

P.S. I'm writing, Rod...I'm doing it.

*YOU* have a blog?

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Ups & Downs

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My Weight Loss Program (Part Three) - Nutrition

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My Weight Loss Program (Part Two) - Exercise

New Rules

My Weight Loss Program (Part One) - Overview

Friend Makin' Monday - Recipe Exchange

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Monday Post - Part One

FIRST DAY!

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What would you call this post?

T-Minus 24+ hours and counting...

FMM: Dream Vacation

Question

I'm Blessed

Randomness

Ouch...

How much do I fail?

GAH!

Multiple Monday

Friend Makin' Monday!

Short post today

Yet Another Random Post About Nothing....

A Note to my wife and daughters

A renewed effort

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Friday - TGIF (I think)

Cereal...I hate you - no, I love you - no, hate...

Humble Blessings

Monday Musings

Struggles

PLEASE - PLEASE VOTE!!

Holy Sh...Cow.

A call for help

Sweeps Week (Not really, but I couldn't think of a catchy title)

Fat man in some little shoes...

ABC's

Weekend!

Stupid Scale

Jesus is my Personal Trainer

It must be a Thursday.

Things I'm looking forward to

Food and Failings

Honesty

Monday, Monday....So Good To Me

Oh Weekend - You make me....something...

Friday Musings

10 Cardio?!? Yeah, RIGHT....

Yes...I'm posting twice...again...okay?

PR Yesterday (Personal Record)

“I'm fat, but I'm thin inside... there's a thin man inside every fat man.”

Roller Derby Weekend!

Confessions of a "Wet-Shaver" - Or "How I Found Peace In A Razor"

Maybe I can start posting more than once every 8 months.

Seasons Change

"Insert Title Here"

Gardening For Beginners

Yes, two posts in one day - Don't get used to it...

Hello World!

YOU have a blog?